HOW ROMANTIC ARE YOU?

You're Semi-Sappy.

Sometimes you're full of sky-high romantic hopes, and sometimes you're more grounded and practical about love. You've been known to get all googly-eyed and daydreamy about certain people, but you don't have unrealistic expectations of your relationships. You think things through; you know if you throw rose petals all over, you're gonna have to pick them up later. Real relationships take work, but it's work this quiz thinks you'll be pretty good at. You're a mix of the sensible AND the romantic -- and that's what every relationship needs.


last night,
i knew what to say
but you,
weren't there to hear it.
these lines,
so well-rehearsed
tongue-tied and overloaded
you never notice.

i'll be missing you;

because i am that bored.
and also because i am this close to tearing my hair out because of TOK.

WHEN WILL YOU FIND LOVE?

You'll find love when you least expect it.

Love is complicated. Relationships take work. Most crushes are just that -- crushes. You know this stuff, and you're OK with it, because when love does happen, it's a beautiful thing. The truth is, it's impossible to predict exactly when you'll find love. It's not like, "Next Tuesday at 2pm! You have an appointment with LOVE!" Since every relationship is different, it's hard to know when you're really "ready," but you seem like you're in a good place, romantically. You're open to the idea of finding love, and you have realistic expectations. You'll find love when you least expect it, and in the meantime, just keep living your life. Good luck!

WHAT BABY ANIMAL ARE YOU?

You're a baby panda!

Maybe you're not into eating bamboo (who is, really?), but your panda-ness suggests that you probably have a favorite food that you could eat all day, every day, for the rest of your life. As a panda, you appreciate solitude and simple things, like climbing leafy trees, and the way the air smells after a storm. You don't need sunshine to be happy -- you'll take shade and rain any day. The sound of falling rain is the perfect background music when you just want to space out and ponder life's big questions, like "How did I get so cute?"

WHAT KIND OF COOKIE ARE YOU?

You are a chocolate chip cookie!

You're sweet (but not too sweet) and you fill other people's lives with tasty bits of awesomeness. You're no perfectionist -- in fact, you're a bit disorganized -- but your friends find your easygoing personality irresistible. You're so popular and loveable that even when you're having a bad day, people still like having you around.

popular and loveable? hahah, hopefully.

if i kissed you, would fireworks fly?

hoho, council duties begin.

something tells me i'd better treasure the time i have! because once everything starts accelerating, there will be no stopping until the end of IB.

and dang it, i'm still in tioman mood. i woke up at 7.50 this morning, just 'cos for the past few nights i had been waking up to the usual chorus of girls chatting. i miss having the beach at my doorstep ): and it's so calm, pristine, and devoid of noisy tourist people. it's just you and a good friend, strolling like there's no tomorrow.

holidayyyyyy.

things to do:

1. TOK ESSAY X 2
2. BIOLOGY IA X 2
3. CHEMISTRY IA

if you change your mind,
i'm the first in line
honey,
i'm still free
take a chance on me
if you need me
let me know
gonna be around.

and i say, thank you for the music.

helloooo.

i just got back from tioman.
awesome trip. not because there was a lot of luxury or fun.
but because of the simple things in life.

friends. fellowship.

and also, it got me thinking about what i really want to do in life. because all the guides living in the eco resort have such passion for what they do, such love for life. i really don't mind living out the rest of my life in the same way even if it means forsaking the finer things in life. it just showed me how 'no man is an island', we don't live in this world by ourselves. we live for others. we live to help make this world a better place.

alas, life is not that simple. and as we trudge back into our daily routines and committments, we have to try and figure out where it is we came from and how to proceed from here.

BETTER TOGETHER - JACK JOHNSON

there's no combination of words
that i could put on a postcard
no song that i could sing
but i can try for your heart

and our dreams
they are made of real things
like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-tone lovin'

love is the answer,
at least for most of the questions in my heart
like why are we here?
where do we go?
and how come it's so hard?

it's not always easy
and sometimes life can be deceiving
i'll tell you one thing
it's always better when we're together

and all of these moments just might find
their way into my dreams tonight
but i know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
or brings new things
for tomorrow night
you'll see
they'll be gone too
too many things i have to do

but if all of these dreams may find their way
into my day to day scene
i'd be under the impression i was somewhere inbetween
with only two, just me and you
not so many things we gotta do
or places we gotta be
we'll sit under the mango tree now

yeah, it's always better when we're together

i believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when i sleep
hey now, and when i wake up
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
but there's not enough time
and there is no, no song i could sing
and no combination of words i could say
but i will still say one thing
we're better together.

i am sleepyyyy.

and i have many things to do tomorrow!

i'm afraid i won't be up to it.
i'm afraid people won't come visit our stall.
i'm afraid i won't be able to live up to the expectations of others.
i'm afraid i will let someone down.
i'm afraid i won't do a good job.

HERO - CHAD KROEGER

i am so high,
i can hear heaven.

and they say that a hero will save us
i'm not gonna stand here and wait
i'll hold on to the wings of the eagles
and watch as they all fly away

someone told me,
love would all save us.
but how can that be,
look what love gave us.
a world of killing, and blood spilling,
that world never came.

now that the world isn't ending
it's love that i'm sending to you
it isn't the love of a hero
and that's why i fear it won't do.

waiting for next week to begin.
waiting for cultural carnival.
waiting for tioman.
waiting for Easter.

waiting.

dum de dum~

*twiddles thumbs*

*chews on fingernails*

*stares blankly into space*

still waiting.

YOU HOLD ME DOWN - MOTIONCITYSOUNDTRACK

i found a letter that said:

i'm sorry you were asleep when i wrote these words down
you'd think i ought to be used to that by now
but save for a few of those late night episodes,
missed opportunities, and 'i don't care's
there's not a lot i feel obliged to share or talk about

i'll have my brother stop by this saturday
to pick up my things
just make sure you're not there.

this may sound bad, don't take it the wrong way
i love you
however,
you hold me down
you hold me down.

you're the echoes of my everything
you're the emptiness the whole world sings at night
you're the laziness of afternoon
you're the reason why i burst and why i bloom
how will i break the news to you?

cancel our dinner with max and coraline
feed jackie's gerbil
and try to stay clean
we'll talk it over after i've had some time alone to sort it out
you hold me down.
you hold me down.

you're the leaky sink of sentiment
you're the failed attempts i could never forget
you're the metaphors i can't create to comprehend this curse called love.

how will i break the news to you?

man, i love college.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER TEE. :D

you've been a great friend to me all this while! i'm really not afraid of saying anything in front of you. we spent 15 hours together on your birthday! hahah, awesome. 2 years is really a short time. and i hope we'll still have many happy memories together.

and other (slightly) weird friends :




NZ BOY. :P


WEIJIEEEEEE.


ALYSSAAAAA.



JESSICAAAA.

much love.

oh, i just went running this morning. O:
yes, i've never ever ever ever ever EVER been much of a runner. seriously.
but somehow, i don't know what possessed me, i signed up for the KWSH charity run. 5km.
i don't even know what 5 km looks like. but i guess, i am trying to train up for it. whether i can actually complete 5km on that day, i don't know. but i'll try my best. everytime i go running, it seems like this giant I HATE RUNNING block in my mind slowly erodes away. it will probably never go away. but i will overcome it.

don't tell me there's something i can't do, because then i will pursue it with all my heart.

run, baby, run.
don't ever look back.

that's what you get when you let your heart win;

found this weird quiz online. and the results are quite accurate! although i actually want to find a job that may or may not be able to sustain me financially, but allows me to make a difference in society. and i've not been hiding my true self ever since i went to SJII :D

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

ohoh, i am going to be so busy over the next few days.

this is my schedule.

tomorrow - dental/easter choir practice
thursday - go novena collect t-shirts/squad outing
friday - dim sum day! / x campus run
saturday - nothing, yet.
sunday - church
monday - netball/preparations for cultural carnival
tuesday - CULTURAL CARNIVAL!
WEDNESDAY -SUNDAY - off to TIOMAN.

and after the holidays end, i have to hand in my chem ia and do my english IOP.
and before this week ends, i need to go look for mr. ananraj and ask him about my IOP.

whooo, but i am still loving school.
i have nothing to do now! this is like the lull before the storm. if i don't come out of this alive, tell my mommy i love her.

i've never been happier, really.

comparisons are easily done; once you've had a taste of perfection.

HELLO. this was posted on weijie's blog and i feel like i need to stand up for my own gender.

“This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is for the guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for the nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And also for that time she didn’t have a date, and even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

Many girls claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!).


okay, i really agree with this thing, like how there are so many nice guys in this world who are taken for granted by the girls around them, guys who are not seen as 'date-able', 'cos they're 'too nice' and 'just friends'. but it's like, sometimes, those nice guys are simply it. NICE. maybe they should try to 'man' up sometimes, and no, i don't mean start inserting expletives into their every sentences and having fart competitions with their friends in front of girls, but maybe those nice guys need to try and make the first move! oftentimes, the nice guy remains at the girl's side but doesn't say a word and just quietly supports her and quietly nurses his broken heart.
i mean what all girls really want is not much - someone they can trust and someone who gives them a sense of security. sometimes the nice guy is really nice and trustworthy but doesn't give the girl the feeling of "oh, he will come and rescue me if i'm ever in trouble" you know? but obviously, not all nice guys are the same. i'm just saying.

and also, this is not only true for nice guys! there are a lot of nice girls out there who are neglected as well. i mean it's so hard to live up to guys' expectations sometimes. i feel so sickened every time it's like "aye, she's nice but she's not hot." you know? like they don't even want to take an interest in a girl if she doesn't fulfill certain physical attributes (e.g. skinny/fit/long,glossy hair/big eyes,etc.)

okay i better stop here before i start rambling on and on.

ARGH. IA IA IA D:

with the taste of a poison paradise;

council speech tomorrow.
and then the agonizingly long wait for the results.
ah well.
whatever happens, happens.
i'm glad i didn't run away when the opportunity came up. and whatever happens, at least i know i've tried and i won't be beating myself up by going "aye, should have done this when i had the chance."

more annoying :
CHEM IA PRELIMINARY PLANNING TOMORROW.
i don't know what i'm going to dooooooooo. D:

oh man, i wna go watch duffy's concert.
i wna go watch the watchmen.
i wna watch CATS THE MUSICAL.

I FELL IN LOVE WITHOUT YOU - MOTIONCITYSOUNDTRACK

last night, i fell in love without you
i waved goodbye to that heart of mine
beating solo on your lawn

every aching wound would cauterize and bruise
in memory of what we used to call love
and only time will tell
if violins will swell
in memory of what we used to call in love
we used to call it love.

last night, i fell in love without you
the stars at night aren't as big and bright
as you make them out to be.

helloooo.

went back to school to collect my o level cert. waited from 4.30 until 7 ++ and they still couldn't find it! finally the lady from the general office said that the moe said there were 73 certs with errors in them and they couldn't send it over in time. and apparently mine is one of the 73. damn. they told me to come back in two to three weeks' time. bah.

but it was worth it to see so many familiar faces again.

it's like, even though i LOVE my new school (SJII!♥) you can't deny that the past makes up a large part of who you are and there are just some things you don't forget.

council speeches on monday! i haven't thought of what i'm going to say yet.
gosh.

STARS - SWITCHFOOT

maybe i've been the problem
maybe i'm the one to blame
even when i turn it off and blame myself
the outcome's still the same

i've been thinking maybe i've been partly cloudy
maybe i'm the chance of rain
and maybe i'm overcast
maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

i've been thinking about
everyone, everyone, you look so lonely
but when i look at the stars
when i look at the stars
when i look at the stars, i see someone else
when i look at the stars,
i feel like myself.

stars looking at a planet
watching entropy and pain
and maybe start to wonder
how the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

i've been thinking about the meaning of resistance
of a hope beyond my own
and suddenly the infinite and penitent
begin to look like home.

i've been thinking about
everyone, everyone
you look so empty.

nothing is forever;

i am feeling melancholic today. for no apparent reason.
i think it's 'cos i've been on a happy streak for too long.
my happy glands need a rest.
so body releases more sad hormones.
see, we study biology for a reason.

i just got back my assessment for this term
i'm satisfied with my results. although i still feel i can do better. fyi, the IB system is totally opposite from the o level one where the most number of points is the best mark.
in IB, 7 is the highest grade and 1 is the lowest.
beh.
i got 36/42.
oxford's entry requirement is 38.
i aim to get 40!
but it's not easy? it's not like 2 points. it's 2 GRADES. and it's so freaking difficult to advance a grade. it's not about the effort you put in? it's more about your understanding of the subject. and sometimes, you can only understand so much and the rest is just beyond your grasp.

just close your eyes, and hope it's not for nothing at all.

this is a random, non-exhaustive list of places i want to visit in the (near) future. (future husband/soulmate please take note.)

1. ireland
2. barcelona
3. venice
4. copenhagen
5. alaska
6. vatican city!
7. jerusalem
8. the great barrier reef
9. new zealand!
10. tokyo/hokkaido
11. south africa

ooh, this has got to be one of my favourite songs of all time. although i have yet to analyse its contents. it's just the kind of, just-after-it-rains, melancholic vibe which is so infectious. it's about how when you're young, everything is so beautiful and carefree, yet so transient and fleeting. how there is so much to regret yet, so much to cherish. it's about the death of innocence and childhood as you move into the harsh reality of adult life. it's about nostalgia, how life always seemed better in the past.

ONE HEADLIGHT - THE WALLFLOWERS

so long ago, i don't remember when
that's when they say i lost my only friend
well, they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
as i listened through the cemetary trees

i seen the sun coming up at the funeral at dawn
the long broken arm of human law
now it always seemed such a waste
she always had a pretty face
so i wonder how she hung around this place

hey, come on,
try a little
nothing is forever
there's got to be something better than in the middle
but me and cinderella
we put it all together
and we'll drive home,
with one headlight.

she said it's cold
it feels like independence day
and i can't break away from this parade
but there's got to be an opening
somewhere here in front of me
through this maze of ugliness and greed

well this place is old
it feels just like a beat-up truck
i turn the engine but the engine doesn't turn
well, it smells of cheap wine and cigarettes
this place was always such a mess
sometimes i think i'd like to watch it burn
i'm so alone and i feel just like somebody else
man, i ain't changed
but i know i ain't the same
but somewhere here in between the city walls of dying dreams
i think her death it must be killing me.

ugh. i am dreading tomorrow.
mondays are always really bad days for me.
here are some reasons why.

1. i have a chemistry IA coming up. and all the other chemistry classes already know the topic. but we don't yet. and it sounds really difficult. and i'm really afraid i will do badly. because so far, i haven't succeeded on any of the IAs.

2. i have a biology IA coming up. again, scary.

3. and i have 2 tests on the same day on thursday.

4. cultural carnival and tioman are coming up in 2 weeks' time!

bah. sucks.

your hand in mine, when we're intertwined everything's alright

helloooooo :D

we had movie night in school last night. watched the Godfather. it's some classic italian gangster flick. i think it's pretty cool. it's a lot better than some of the dumbed-down-for-the-masses crap showing at the cinemas nowadays. i seriously think i have crossed the threshold. i have become an arty fart. hoho.

crashed at home after peer mentoring. didn't even go for rciy 'cos i was just too tired.

senior school council elections are coming! i wna run. but it's like i gotta be nominated first? and i don't want to nominate myself because then what's the point if i don't have the support of others in the first place. so yeah. i shall just wait and see what happens. but still. i wna run.

i'm going to be very busy for the rest of this month. heck, probably for the rest of the year.

life is a roller-coaster; just gotta ride it.

my life is an emotional roller-coaster. some days i have good days, and some days are not so good. some days i am able to achieve much without even having to put in much effort. and others even though i slog my guts out i still fail. i am teetering on the precipice between love and hate, between confidence and insecurity, between happiness and frustration. some days i just wonder, why the hell do i even bother? some days i question myself on whether i have made the right choice and yet i know, i wouldn't have wanted it any other way. and i know the grass is never greener on the other side of the pasture, it is always the same. it is a matter of perception. it's just hard. seeing so many people excel and being faced with the brick wall that is my own staggering incompetence. and being helpless to do anything about it. some days i really wonder.

today is one of those days.

and yet, i know this is the only one life i have got, and it's worth fighting for. even if i don't succeed, at least i know i've done the best that i've possibly could, and if i'm still not good enough, i couldn't have helped being not good enough anyway, so i will just have to accept it.

you're always on display
for everyone to watch and learn from
don't you know by now?
you can't turn back
because this road is all you'll ever have.

keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me.

you made yourself a bed
at the bottom of the blackest hole
and convinced yourself
that's the reason you don't see the sun anymore.

you're a tragedy;

whew. work is seriously starting to pile up.
today was such a bleah day, all bland, chilly and dreary.
netball yesterday was good, tho. at least i didn't feel like a complete moron while playing 8D



CANDLE - WHITE TIE AFFAIR

i took a ride on a February morning
just getting over it and dealing with the mourning
i started thinking out loud
i'm so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired

my baby's flying off the edge of the road
she's saying " i'm so sorry about that note"
that left me all alone
but i'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired

somebody turn the lights on
somebody tell me what's wrong
i'd be lying if i told you
losing you was something i could handle

somebody turn the lights on
somebody tell me how long
all this darkness will surround you
'cause i'm burning for you
burning like a candle


no line on the horizon.

she's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking!?

i am on a guitar hero high now.
even though, i can only do the vocals. i can't play the drums to save my life.
my hands and feet just don't move together at the same time.

my whole weekend has been BURNEDDDD.

MISERABLE AT BEST - MAYDAY PARADE

let's not pretend you're alone tonight
i know he's there
and you're probably hanging out
and making out
while across the room, he stares
i bet he gets the nerve to ask my girl to dance
and she'll say yes.

because these words were never easier
for me to say
for her to second-guess
but i can guess
that i can live without you
but without you i'd be miserable at best.

you're all that i hoped i'd find
in every single way
and everything i could give
is everything you couldn't take
'cause nothing feels like home
you're a thousand miles away
and the hardest part of living
is just taking breaths to stay

and this will be the first time in a week
that i'll talk to you and i can't speak
it's been three whole days
since i've got sleep
'cause i dream of his lips on your cheek
and i get the point that i should leave you alone
but we both know i'm not that strong
i miss the lips that made me fly.

'cause i know i'm good for something
i just haven't found it yet.