i think i'm moving but i go nowhere,

lunch with shiying.
hahah, it was alright. and always refreshing to see her after a long time.
we are alike in many ways.
and scratch all feelings of fear. i've gotten over it.
i'm now excited about going to school! even if i don't get the scholarship, at least i get to spend 5 days at SJII, i might as well enjoy it without ruining with worry. :D

ah, the year is ending soon ):
like, really soon! in 2 days' time.
i think 2009 will be a hectic year for me. by this thursday a new year would have begun! nuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
let me make new years' resolutions.
1. i resolve to be nicer to the people around me.
2. i resolve to finish my SAT tenyearseries.
3. i resolve to get good grades in whatever school i go to.
4. i resolve to spend more time in prayer. (:
5. i resolve to exercise!


the world slows down
but my heart beats fast right now
i know this is the part where the end starts.

okay i know blog quizzes are nearly always stupid and nonsensical but heck, most things are like that anyway. especially the kinds of things you do to pass the time.




QUIZZZZ.
1 . What is your full name ?
Amanda Seraphina i'm-not-telling-you-the-rest-because-who-the-heck-are-you-anyway.
2. Are you single ?
YEP, AND LOVING IT. :D
3 . What is/are your favourite number[s] ?
1, because that has always been my number.
4 . What is/are your favourite colour[s] ?
red,white, gold.
5. Least favourite colours ?
none, really.
6 . What are you thinking of now ?
hmm, some really random thoughts. do polar bears get lonely? what does hweleng look like in a bikini?
7.Are you happy with your life right now ?
Yeah, never been happier. :D
8. What is your favourite subject in school ?
BIOOOO. i love all of it. even freaking genetics.
9. Do you shop at malls ?
duh, who doesn't.
10 : Where do you wish to be right now ?
i don't know! i wish i were at church, actually. i'm always entertained/at peace there.
11. What should you be doing now ?
reading. returning books to the library. not slacking infront of the computer.
12 . Do you have any crush on anyone ?
hahah nope! potential crushes are free to contact me, although i doubt that if you think yourself to be a potential crush you would be someone i would actually crush upon.
13. When was the last time you bought a clothing item ?
last friday :D
14 . What was the last thing you drank ?
salt water. 'cos i had hiccups!
15 .Do you hate liars ? Do you hate backstabbers ?
duh.
16 . Can you make yourself sneeze ?
no, but i always sneeze anyway.
17 . Do you fall for ppl easily ?
nope.
18 . What does your last text msg read ?
"To renew your student benefits, please present a valid stupid id at m1 paragon,imm or change alley customer service centre."
19 : Are you too forgiving ?
nope, i think everyone deserves to be forgiven.
20 . How many windows are open on your computer ?
3.
21 . who was your last call from ?
shiying.
22 . What do you do with most of your time ?
play facebook! read.
23 . Will you & your ex get back together again ?
nope.
24. Do you sleep with the tv on ?
i've been sleeping on the couch for the past few days, so yeah.
25 . Which of your close friends live the closest ?
uh, no one ):
26 . Which item could you not live without during the day ?
nothing, really. i'm veh self-sufficient. i probably need a book to read, if not i'd be bored.
oh and teevee.
27 . Would you share a drink with a stranger ?
probably. depends on the occasion.
28 . How was your weekend ?
funfunfun. christmas party/ book shopping/ church, always a good combination.
29 . Do you believe ex[s] can be frens ?
sure. but sometimes, it's hard.
30 . The last person you quarrelled with ?
i don't quarrel. i have "spirited discussions".
31. The way to win your heart ?
be a gentleman. and be yourself! i dislike poseurs.
32 . What did you do last night ?
sleep!
33 . Do you have the same name as one of your relatives ?
no.
34 . Are you looking for a boyf/girlf ?
NO I AM LOOKING FOR A SOULMATE. (:
35 . One song that is meaningful to you ?
yellow, coldplay.
36 . Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti ?
twirl.
37 . Do your drink milk straight from the carton ?
i don't like milk D:< 38 . How long is your hair ?
it's short.
39. Do you like batman ?
i liked the dark knight :D
40. Who was the last person who told you that they love you ?
God. :D and my mother. i'm loved.
and cheryl, i told you i loved you on christmas!
41 : When was the last time you sang out loud ?
just.
42 . What did you have for breakfast ?
i don't eat breakfast. i eat brunch.
43. Is your birthday on a holiday ?
yeah.
44 . Can you cook ?
i can cook a really good omelette!
45 . Where did you get the shirt your are wearing ?
USA, banana republic :D
46 . What was the reasons for the last troubles you were in ?
don't tell you. but i'm hardly troubled anyway, i am a happy pig.
47 . Which do you wear more ? sweats or jeans
JEANS :D
48. When is your bdae ?
29 may
49 : Do you swear alot ?
nuuuu. not really.
50 . What was your first alcoholic drink ?
campari soda.
51 . Do you have any regrets ?
some. but i mostly like to live my life without regrets.
52 . Who would you like to see now ?
no one! i'm a loner.
53 . Have the cops ever come to your house ?
no! and i hope they never have to.
54 . Are you a social or anti-social person ?
a little bit of both.
55 . Who are your best friends ?
CherylL. actually i have many good good friends. not so many best friends.
56 . Ever been in love ?
once.
57 . Ever had braces ?
i'm getting braces! next year.
58. What do you wear to bed ?
fbts. and random tshirts.
59 . Who was the last person who disappointed you ?
not saying.
60 . Do you trust ppl ?
why are all these questions similar. nope, i fear disappointment.
61 . Who was the first person you talked to today ?
my maid.
62. Who was the first person who text you today ?
my mother.
63 . What was the first thing you did today ?
get on a train to orchard!

and i'm having trouble finding a song to post. so i found this instead.



i want my mama ):

let the credits start to roll;

booya. i got a busy day ahead of me :D

me and ashleigh are going book-shopping and eating.
HAHAH WE ARE SUCH GEEKS.
and then i'm attending a concert and church, and partying until midnight.

school starts in less than 2 weeks. O:

RUN - LEONA LEWIS

i'll sing it
one last time for you
then we really have to go
you've been the only thing that's right
in all i've ever done

and i can barely look at you
but every single time i do
i know we'll make it anywhere
away from here

light up, light up
as if you had a choice
even if you cannot hear my voice
i'll be right beside you, dear.

louder, louder
and we'll run for our lives
i can hardly speak
i can understand
why you can't raise your voice
to say

slower,slower
we don't have time for that
all i want
is to find an easier way
to get out of
our little heads

have heart, my dear
we're bound to be afraid
even if it's just for a few days
making up for this mess we made.

i wanna be the one to walk in the sun;

BOXING DAY

went with my mommy to isetan private sale. it was madness,i tell you.
it was literally people mountain people sea. but i'm happyyyy.
finally got the bag i'm gna use next year,its what abigail chee alr has, but whatever, i like it ;D shopped around. legs dieded.



QUIZ FROM CHERYL.


1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
TO SPY ON OTHERS! HAHAH :D
2. What do you do before bedtime?
BRUSH AND FLOSS! I'M GETTING BRACES, MUST TAKE CARE OF TEETH.
3. What will your dream wedding be like?
IN CHURCH, WITH MY SOULMATE.
4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
I DNO. SINGAPORE'S GREAT. BUT I WOULD LOVE TO STAY IN SOME QUIET, PICTURESQUE SEASIDE TOWN, LIKE SANDIEGO :D
5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
BEH. DON'T LABEL ME. I AM WOMAN! I AM MANY THINGS AT THE SAME TIME.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
IT IS MORE BLESSED TO LOVE SOMEONE, ALTHOUGH BEING LOVED IS HECK OF A LOT EASIER.
7. Do you trust easily?
NOT REALLY. I AM AFRAID OF DISAPPOINTMENT.
8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
I HAVE SO MANY. JOAN OF ARC, MOTHER THERESA,MOTHER MARY,...SELENA GOMEZ?
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
I AM A HAPPY PIG.
10. When’s the last time you had fun?
YESTERDAY ;D I LOVE SINGING AND CHRISTMAS.
11. Is being tagged fun?
SURE IT IS. TAGMORE!
12. How do you see yourself?
AN EVIL DICTATOR WAITING TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD :D
13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
MY FAMILY. AND FUTURE LOVE OF MY LIFE, WHEREVER YOU ARE!
14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
CHERYLLEONG? LOVE!
15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
MARRIED.
16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
8!
17. What’s better, to give or to receive?
IT WOULD BE NICE TO HAVE BOTH.
18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
IF I AM IN LOVE WITH BOTH, AT THE SAME TIME, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CHOOSE.
BUT I WOULD CHOOSE THE CUTER ONE! :D
19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
KEEP THE BABY!
20. What are you waiting for right now?
I AM WAITING FOR LITTLE NONYA TO START.


THE DRIVEWAY - MILEY CYRUS

after twelve
not so well
won't pretend it's too soon to tell
what's around this bend
no disgrace about face
anything not to have to chase you down again
you know nothing hurts like losing when you know it's really gone
except for the pain of choosing to hold too long

i tried it your way
but i got nothing to show
it's been the same, same
and the story's getting old
so i guess the driveway
will be the end of the road for us
it's too late
let the credits start to roll

i thought we were getting somewhere
but we're still nowhere at all
i watch your tail lights fading
i try but the tears won't fall
i remember what it feels like to have love
and have it taken away

can't think of what i've learned right now
but i'll be thanking you someday.





you don't have to love me for me
to ever understand
just know that i love the time we both had
'cause i don't ever wanna see you sad
'cause i don't wanna hold you if you don't love me
i know i'll have to walk away
i'll be brave enough for both of us to say

be happy.

o holy night, the stars are brightly shining.

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D

midnight mass at st. iggy's was awesome! i love christmas.

HARK! THE HERALD ANGELS SING

hark! the herald angels sing
glory to the newborn king
peace on earth and mercy mild
God and sinners reconciled
joyful all ye nations rise
join the triumph of the skies
with the angelic host proclaim
Christ is born in Bethlehem

'tis the season to be jolly;

christmas eveeee.

hahah yay. i am going to be busy busy busy for the next couple of days.
and it's christmas tomorrow! :DDDDDD

and i have run out of things to say.

i am happy happy happy and nothing can dampen my spirits.

do you know what it feels like;

hello.

christmas lunch at my house today!

i really had a lot of fun. laughing at hweemin, mostly.
we also went shopping at amk hub. funfunfun.
TYT, WE ARE WAITING FOR YOU TO COME BACK.
HURRY UP.
on my way home, i was thinking a lot to myself.
i regretted not taking the time to get to know all of them better while we were still at school and i can't believe we all won't be in the same place next year and won't see each other often anymore.
damn.

okay i couldn't find anymore christmas carols for the time being so its another nice relient k song.

BE MY ESCAPE - RELIENT K

i've given up on giving up slowly
i'm blending in so you won't even know me
apart from this whole world that shares my fate
and this one last bullet you mention
is my one last shot at redemption
because i know to live
you must give your life away

and i've housing all this doubt and insecurity
and i've been locked inside the house
all the while you hold the key
i've been dying to get out
and that might be the death of me
and even though,
there's no way of knowing where to go

i promise i'm going because
i gotta get outta here
i'm stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake
i gotta get outta here
and i'm begging you,
to be my escape.

i am a hostage to my own humanity
self detained and forced to live in this mess i've made
and all i'm asking is for you to do what you can with me
but i can't ask you to give what you already gave.

you're clouding up my mind ;

funny how things turned out after we left school, funny how friendships changed.
i am now closer to people with whom i was never that close before,
and people whom i was close with, fade away like nothing more than distant memories and of course, there are the friendships that don't ever change, no matter where i go.

i am tired and frustrated. glad that i no longer have to keep up this pretense with you, this contant giving in to your needs and wants. of course, i do feel guilty for feeling this way, but i can't help but feel relieved, truly. i do not want to carry on waiting for you to take action, to respond to my questions. i am tired of waiting, and i shall live my life as i please.

i am glad that i no longer care what you think about me. i no longer care who you end up with but of course, wish you all the best in everything and hope that you find your happiness somehow, somewhere. it has taken me so long, to get to where i am and how i feel today.

don't mind me. i'm just ranting. not aimed at anyone in particular, just voicing some of the feelings that have bubbled within me for some time.

christmas party at my place tomorrow, with the girls :D

SILENT NIGHT / AWAY IN A MANGER - RELIENT K

silent night,
holy night
all is calm
all is bright.
round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
sleep in heavenly peace
sleep in heavenly peace

silent night,
holy night
shepherds quake,
at the sight
glories stream from heaven afar
heavenly hosts sing Alleluia
Christ the Saviour is born
Christ the Saviour is born

away in a manger
no crib for a bed
the little Lord Jesus lay down his sweet head
the stars in the sky looked down where He lay
the little Lord Jesus asleep on the hay

what kind of a man you are,

oh great. my visions of edward cullen have been tainted by ro. pattinson's face.
still,he's not too bad. and i thought twilight was alright too. quite true to the book, although i would have thought that the cullens would live in a more classic 18th century English countryside sort of house,not a sprawling modern zen den.

but still, curse you,stephanie meyer, for cruelly spinning a tale of the perfect 'man' and forever raising the hopes of all girls to try and find their own vampire prince.

so this is christmas. i am in a festive mood. :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS, HERE'S TO MANY MORE - RELIENT K

i made it through the year
and i did not even collapse
i gotta say
thank God for that
i'm torn between what keeps me whole
and what tears me in half
i'll fall apart or stay intact

with tired eyes, i stumble back to bed
i need to realize my sorry life's
not hanging by a thread
at least not yet

so look at me now
it's finally christmas and i'm home
head indoors
to get out of this weather
and i don't know how
but the closest friends i've ever known
are all inside,singing
merry christmas, here's to many more

it always hurt to be all by myself this time of year
a cold and lonely Christmas eve
and living out my days alone,well,
that had been my greatest fear
but you promised you won't leave

i look towards the east and see a star
Jesus Christ,
it's blessed my life to know just who you are
you are my hope

deck the halls with mistletoe
may all your heavy burdens go
up the chimney in a cloud of smoke
the fire's burning bright
strike up the band and play the tune
'cause Christmas will be here and soon
you'll hear our song in every room
this merry christmas night.

its grand,just holding your hand ;

:

lunch with the besties.

we are quite a sad bunch, only motivated by food.
for without food, we wandered around lot one aimlessly before deciding we should all go home and play geo challenge.

ah, facebook.
it is taking over my life. i often find myself wondering why i bother spending so much time clicking on a ball or a frisbee 30 times consecutively to see whether i can get a trophy. i also often brush the thought aside and continue my fruitless clicking.

SLEIGH RIDE - RELIENT K

just hear those sleigh bells jingling
ring ting tingling too
come on, it's lovely weather
for a sleigh ride together with you
outside the snow is falling
the friends are calling "yoo hoo"
come on, it's lovely weather
for a sleigh ride together with you

giddy up, giddy up,
giddy up, let's go
let's look at the show
we're riding in a wonderland of snow
giddy up giddy up,
giddy up, it's grand
just holding your hand
we're gliding along with a song
of a wintry wonderland

our cheeks are nice and rosy
and comfy cozy are we
we're snuggled up together
like two birds of a feather would be
let's take that road before us
and sing a chorus or two

at the home of farmer gray
it'll be the perfect ending, a perfect day
we'll be singing those songs,
we'd love to sing without a single stop
at the fireplace while we watch
the chestnuts pop,pop,pop.

there's a happy feeling
nothing in the world can buy
when they pass around the chocolate and pumpkin pie
it'll nearly be like the picture painted by
currier and ives
these wonderful things are the things
we remember all through our lives.

but when i caught myself;

i am in desperate need of a job.

i am sooooooooo bored. D:

17th dec twilight!
18th dec penitential mass.
19th dec lunch with the besties.
20th dec christmas sleepover.
23rd dec lunch with my girls.
24th dec christmas eve
25th dec christmas day.

phoo-ey.

SQUAD DINNER. :D

we're all such retards. no, scratch that.

we're all such indecisive retards.

we would be like.

xenia : let's go somewhere!

everyone : okay!

yanting : but, where?

*everyone stones at the same spot for 10minutes, effectively blocking everyone's way.*

huijuan : MAIN POINT!

kelteo : let's go park.

rest of the guys : CARPARK LAH.

retards, but lovable nonetheless.

i am very bored!
i shall look for new blogskin again. but then again im using N810 so its rly irritating.

movies i wna watch:
1. the day the earth stood still
2. the curious case of benjamin button
3. twilight
4. bolt
5.valkyrie

blah. borrringggggggggggggggg.

i love this song- its really deep.
in this case, dancer refers to a state of mind where a person continually follows a routine, 'performing' for an invisible audience, conforming to social expectations in order not to make the wrong 'move'.
mmm, me likey.

HUMAN - THE KILLERS.

I did my best to notice
when the call came down the line
up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
sometimes I get nervous
when I see an open door
close your eyes
clear your heart
and cut the cord.

are we human,
or are we dancers?
my sign is vital
my hands are cold
and I'm on my knees looking for the answer

are we human, or are we dancers?

pay my respects to grace and virtue
send my condolences to good
give my regards to soul and romance
they always did the best they could
and so long to devotion
you taught me everything i knew
wave goodbye
wish me well
you gotta let me go.

will your system be alright
when you dream of home tonight
there is no message we're receiving
let me know
is your heart still beating?

I HATE THIS PART - PCD

we're driving slow
through the snow, on fifth avenue
and right now
radio's all that we can hear

now we ain't talked since we left
its so overdue
its cold ouside
but between us
its worse in here

the world slow down
but my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
back then we were stronger
all we do is linger
slipping through my fingers
I don't want to try now
all there's left is goodbye
to find a way that I can tell you

i hate this part right here
i just can't take your tears
i hate this part right here.

everyday
seven takes of the same old scene
seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
but will we sleep
ince you know what's hurting me

i know you'll ask me to hold on
and carry on like nothing's wrong
but there's no more time for lies
i see sunset in your eyes.

okay majorly outdated, but whatever.

prom (ALSO KNOWN AS, THE GREAT CAMWHORING EVENT OF 2008):

wow, i never thought it was possible, 'cos in my mind,
nanhua people aren't exactly a very good looking bunch. we're mostly average and whatnot right!?
then suddenly,
WHOA.
EVERYONE LOOKED REALLY GOOD!
i never really expected us to be the dressing up sort.
yeah so anyway,
everything took forever to begin!
BUT SERIOUSLY.
no one gave a crap about the food or the performances :x
its just like photos, photos, photos.
i think i look really weird in most of them anyway.
or maybe i just look weird all the time.
bah, humbug.
kinda makes you think about what life in secondary school is all about.

overseas :

yeah its 2 weeks.
im not going to give like a blow by blow recount of every single thing i did.

1. they have really nice TV SHOWS.
2. you know how chinese cuisine has a lot of like nice and healthy veggies and mushrooms and rice? when you're over there, FORGET IT.
its not hard to see why 60% of their population is obese/overweight, because their food is full of cheese, mayo, whipped cream,yogurt, full fat milk, low fat milk, caramel,meat meat and more meat and you get the idea.
and the worst part of it is,
IT ALL TASTES SO DAMN GOOD, YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL BAD ABOUT WOLFING DOWN SEVERAL BOWLS OF IT.
3. you know there are loads of shopping centres, with loads of really cute things.
its not hard to see why they are in economic recession because you can't help but want to buy everything in the store. if we weren't seasoned,shrewd,must be virtually free or no deal bargain hunting Singaporeans, we would have caved.but oh no we didn't, we survived. :D
4. i am tired. and i have been awake since 3am. will add more when i feel like it.

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