you're clouding up my mind ;

funny how things turned out after we left school, funny how friendships changed.
i am now closer to people with whom i was never that close before,
and people whom i was close with, fade away like nothing more than distant memories and of course, there are the friendships that don't ever change, no matter where i go.

i am tired and frustrated. glad that i no longer have to keep up this pretense with you, this contant giving in to your needs and wants. of course, i do feel guilty for feeling this way, but i can't help but feel relieved, truly. i do not want to carry on waiting for you to take action, to respond to my questions. i am tired of waiting, and i shall live my life as i please.

i am glad that i no longer care what you think about me. i no longer care who you end up with but of course, wish you all the best in everything and hope that you find your happiness somehow, somewhere. it has taken me so long, to get to where i am and how i feel today.

don't mind me. i'm just ranting. not aimed at anyone in particular, just voicing some of the feelings that have bubbled within me for some time.

christmas party at my place tomorrow, with the girls :D

SILENT NIGHT / AWAY IN A MANGER - RELIENT K

silent night,
holy night
all is calm
all is bright.
round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
sleep in heavenly peace
sleep in heavenly peace

silent night,
holy night
shepherds quake,
at the sight
glories stream from heaven afar
heavenly hosts sing Alleluia
Christ the Saviour is born
Christ the Saviour is born

away in a manger
no crib for a bed
the little Lord Jesus lay down his sweet head
the stars in the sky looked down where He lay
the little Lord Jesus asleep on the hay