unhappy endings

she heard this song on the radio yesterday. it is quite nice, despite the emo-sounding lyrics. its a different sound to which he normally sings.
i posted this here before, i think. but still. i think it deserves a rerun. :D
i seem to have a thing for british male solo artists e.g. james blunt, mika, etc.

happy ending

this is the way you left me
im not pretending
no hope no love no glory
no happy ending

this is the way that we love
like its forever
then live the rest of our life
but not together

wake up in the morning
stumble on my life
cant get no love without sacrifice
if anything should happen
i guess i wish you well
mm a little bit of heaven
but a little bit of hell

this is the hardest story
that i've ever told
no hope or love or glory
happy ending's gone forever more
i feel as if im wasting
and i waste everyday

two o'clock in the morning
someone's on my mind
can't get no rest
keep walking around
if i pretend that nothing ever went wrong
i can get to my sleep
i can dream now and just carry on

this is the way you left me
im not pretending
no hope no love no glory
no happy endings

this is the way that we love
like its forever
and live the rest of our lives
but not together

cl olvls

oookay.
tmr is the express chinese olvls. just finished tuition, slacking off for a bit ( amanda happily ignores the fact that she has been 'slacking off a bit' for the whole morning )
she decides that if there is going to be olvls tmr, then she should be as relaxed and happy as possible and not stressed out and 'oh-my-gawd-what-am-i-going-to-do' - ish.

interesting thought :
amanda looked at the state of her bedroom recently, and decides that she should probably marry a 'manny' ( which refers to a male nanny, they're increasing in popularity in the states )
he would help her wash,clean,cook and do all the housework-y stuff that the lazy carbonbased humanoid lifeform that she is prefers not to do.
however, after delving deeper into the thought, she realises that they probably would not have anything to talk about because amanda aspires to be a Nobel prize-winning environmental activist and all the manny would talk about would be, as her mother charmingly put it, "dear ah, the price of toilet paper has increased by 10cents! its an outrage i tell you, "

hence, she concludes that marrying a manny would probably not be a very good idea. but, she thinks that for other messy-couldnt-care-less-about-neatness girls like her, it is an option to be considered :D

amanda is ranting incessantly.
it is to gear herself up to write compo tomorrow. amanda wants to go out with her 兄妹 tomorrow.
amanda convinces herself that she no longer gives a damn abt certain people and shall try her best not to feel jealous about certain events that transpired. because really, its all sort of petty anyway, it shouldnt be a big deal. she is probably oversensitive.
she is not in a particularly jolly mood as certain dreams she had last night evoked unpleasant memories.

(me: hahah, is anyone even reading this crap? )

-

amanda is scared!
she is listening to scary sound effects from the tv where her mom is watching a documentary about exorcisms.
scareddddddd.
amanda has alot of things to do, including trying to think of some design for campcraft comp next year. and studying for olvl express chinese.

more events:
31oct express chinese olvls
1nov All Saints Day
2nov visit to CID headquarters
5-7nov 209 chalet!
8nov 311chalet!
9nov RV inter-unit amazing race/physics extra lesson
10nov promotest for sectwos
14nov visit to NPCC land division
24nov nh openhouse
27-29nov annual camp
3-6dec going to hk!
14-16dec rciy camp
& other stuff that i cant rmb.

she thinks that little boys shouldnt be campus superstars :X
they should grow up and concentrate on their studies and not act like big hotshots.
she wants to be more hardworking and more efficient so that she can finish all that she has to do quickly.
she wonders, sometimes, whether people really care, or do they just pretend to.
and she also wonders whether, is it just her, or are there more and more NC16 and M18 movies nowadays. which restricts the number of movies which teens can watch. maybe they realised that PG and G movies werent getting enough sales and so imposed more NC16 ratings to force all <16years old to watch them.
its all a conspiracy.

she sincerely hopes that she can get into njc.
she needs help with her humanities.
which is quite funny since humans is one of the subjects which she is purely interested in. perhaps she should start being bored with humans.

over you - daughtry

now that its all said and done
i cant believe you were the one
to build me and tear me down
like an old abandoned house

what you said when you left
you leave me cold and out of breath
i fell too far, way in too deep
guess i let you get the best of me

well i never saw it coming
i should have started running
a long long time ago
i never thought i'd doubt you
im better off without you
more than you more than you know

im slowly getting closure
i guess its really over
im finally getting better
now im picking up the pieces
im spending all of these years
putting my heart back together
'cause the day i thought i'd never get through
im not over you

you took a hammer to these walls
you dragged the memories down the hall
packed your bags and walked away
there was nothing i could say
and when you slammed the front door shut
a lot of others opened up
so did my eyes
so i could see
that you never were the best of me

'cause the day i thought i'd never get through
i got over you.

最美的不是下雨天

anyway, amanda is bored.
she misses her 兄妹 and wonders why hweleng is taking a 3hour long bath.
amanda wants to go out but is dead broke.

rachel's quiz :D

top 5 birthday presents that i wish for!
i dont really know you know. im pretty contented with what i have.

1. ohoh. a house near school :D and loadsa money to buy pretty furniture from IKEA
2. wna learn guitar :P
3. wna learn many many languages!
4. wna pretty HP laptop!
5. lifetime supply of hershley's kisses! the blue one :}

1. the person that tagged me was :
RAAAAACHEL :D
2. your relationship with him/her is :
fellow seafood/mushroom lover! milkybuddy! mother-daughter :D HAHAH rachel, so motherly.
3. 5 impressions of him/her
motherly! knows how to cook well, very 贤妻良母, super efficient! like me! okay not really. cuddly and random!
4. most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
she always offers me food! :D
5. most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
"mandaaaaa, are you bored?"HAHAHA
6. if he/she becomes your lover, you will
hmmm this is interesting. will let you know when i find out XD
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
eh nothing! (:
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
nahhh, she loves me :D
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
cause she loves me too much!
10. The thing you desire to do most for him/her would be?
have a seaweed/mushroom eating party with her.LOL
11. Overall impression of him/her?
great!
12. how do you think people around you feel about you
uhhhh. dont know! short?
13. a character trait you love about yourself
im confident! :D not afraid to speak up. heh
14. a character trait you hate about yourself
i tend to say stuff without thinking, end up hurting people. must be very careful!
15. person i want to be
me! :D
16. say something to the people that care about you!
LUVYA :D
17. choose 10 people, in no particular order, to do the quiz to find out what they think about you.

so hard to choose people rachel hasnt chosen! nvm lah, whoever wants to do can do ;)

weirdness

amanda is feeling hyper now, all of a sudden.
probably because she just read bryan ho's blogpost about ATC and that got her all hyped up.
she also wants to go to the RV amazing race thing and be a spectator but no one seems to be going and she has prior commitments so she needs to pull her momma's apron strings and ask.

she has too much energy which she has nowhere to dispense!
she wonders, where bryan ho is when you need him. (be honoured, bryan, your name is actually here)
gah, oh well.

amanda likes referring to herself in the 3rd person :3

casting the shell of the past aside

amanda

1. loves her 兄妹们 and is declaring it all over the place
2. wishes that people would try to break out of their shells and try new things.
3. wishes that she had the contacts of all her atc friends
4. knows that cheryl bestbestbestie would be jealous of 1. and so must mention her name here for fear of ruthless backlash. :D
5. wishes all the sec4s best of luck for olevels!
6. wonders why some people choose to be pretentious and hide who they really are.
7. wishes she had more time
8. wishes she could change the way things are, but sadly, that aint happening
9. cant wait for chalet :D
10. cant wait for her np shirt with the word 'NCO' on it
11. shall stop talking crap and go sleep now.

here's to the days you felt alive

today :

okayyy, we were all expecting physics SPA to be the same as chem spa and bio spa.
but it was like, some totally unknown thing. everyone put the glassblock the wrong way, so funny.
luckily they were only testing skill2 and we had nice mr daniel chow to help us out :D
so nothing much after that, uber boring binomial theorem for amaths and went out with cheryl,jamie and bunbun to sakae @ wheellock! :D
ate like pigs. ESPECIALLY SOME PEOPLE. (right,cheryl? )
was kinda tired ( after-effects of camp ) and went home early.

ATC 2007 :

oh mannnnn! i hate eating my words, but i seem to do that very often.
ATC was totally fun? yeah it was. :D
its cool la, seeing all the familiar faces again and making new friends, even the high ropes thing was pretty fun, after i got past all the screaming. thanks to xenia teo who almost 'escorted' me to the other side.
i didnt get a chance to get anyone's contacts D: there was no time, we were all busy with area cleaning and before you know it, we gotta go home ):
i miss my camp friends!
ahwell, hope to see them again someday.

first time - lifehouse

we're both looking for something
we've been afraid to find
its easier to be broken, its easier to hide
looking at you, holding my breath
for once in my life, im scared to death
im taking a chance, letting you inside

im feeling alive all over again
as deep as the sky under my skin
like being in love, she said,
for the first time
maybe im wrong, but im feeling right
where i belong
here with you tonight
like being in love
to feel for the first time

the world that i see in you
waiting to come to life
waking me up to dreaming
reality in your eyes

we're crashing
into the unknown
we're lost in this
but it feels like home

like being in love
she said, for the first time
like being in love
to feel for the first time

all jumbled up

holiday schedule

heh, for the benefit of those who happen to have the same schedule as me, or want to date me :D (yes cheryl, that means you)

19-21oct ATC @ pulau ubin
24oct DRAGONBOATING! :D
27oct extra training with sec2s
3nov extra training with sec2s
5-7nov 209CHALET :D
8nov 311CHALET :D
9nov volunteer work with church
10nov sectwos promo test!
15nov sec3s campcraft test
16nov sec2s campcraft test
24nov nh open house
26-28nov annual camp! :D
2-6dec going to HONGKONG! :D {tentative}
14-16dec church camp! :D

& the rest are either not confirmed or not allowed to reveal, so yeah.
cant wait for chalet! :D and im going to try and overcome my fear of heights. TRY.

leaving on a jet-plane

well, not quite.
leaving on a bus!
going off to pulau ubin for camp!
which im not exactly thrilled about, anyway, but still. it has to be done. so yeah.
im scared of heightssssss! D:

quite glad about my results :D vast improvement from CA2.
disappointed with my chinese though, seems everyone did pretty well and got at least a B3. well everyone except me.
anyway, will be away from 19-21oct. yep.

stolen

just heard this song on tv. was pretty nice, cheered me up.

You watch the season pull up its own stakes,
And catch the last weekend of the last week,
Before the gold and the glamour have been replaced.
Another sun soaked season fades away.
You have stolen my heart.
You have stolen my heart.
Invitation only grand farewells.
Crash the best one, of the best ones.
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed,
too early to say goodnight.
You have stolen my heart.
You have stolen my heart.
And from the ballroom floor we are a celebration.
One good stretch before our hibernation.
Our dreams assured and we all will sleep well, sleep well.
You have stolen
You have stolen,
You have stolen my heart.
I watch you spin around in the highest heels.
You are the best one, of the best ones.
We all look like we feel.

salad

i am having mixed feelings tossed around me today! like a nice ol' caesar salad.
EOY RESULTS!
overall, i did pretty well :D except that i think i could have done better for chinese, kinda screwed up the gong1 han3 and did pretty badly for paper2.
good news is, no Cs so far. but thats probably because we got back all the 'good' subjects today.
tomorrow is the killer : getting back maths, physics and social studies.
SO DEAD. maths is like. im gna deduct 24 marks in total before i even consider all the careless and what not.
and physics i dont know. i thought i did everything logically but. you can never tell with physics, y'know? it makes perfect sense to you, but the physicists of the world disagree.
and social studies, my seq is totally screwed. 'nuff said.

and other stuff,
i guess you can say im pretty discouraged. im not a quitter, but sometimes, you try your very hardest, but its never enough. people wont appreciate what you are doing, nor will they try to make your life in anyway easier. i really dont know what to do with myself, cant help but feel frustrated.
but oh well, no use dwelling on it anyway. it doesnt benefit anyone in anyway.
life goes on.

freedom!

EOYS ARE OVERRRRR.!
but i feel strangely empty now that i have so much time and nothing better to do.
(i know im going to kick myself for saying this after things start heating up and endofyear activities start)

i feel so loved by the people on my tagboard!
glad to see there are still people out there coming to my blog. but seriously, im running out of things to blog about!so yes, gimme something interesting to blog about! ignite my passion for blogging once again! c'mon. i dare you to.

oh anyway, on a slightly random note, I WISH MS SATHI WAS OUR ENGLISH TEACHER! hahah, she came to invigilate us for what was it, bio or something. she was so funny.
"and with that, i bid you farewell.." HAHAHAHAH :D

i dunno, i think im leading a very carefree life now. but seriously, im scared of ATC man! im BLOODY SCARED OF HEIGHTS DDDDD:
and DAMN, i dislike PLANNING. alot. wish we could impromptu everything. but obviously, we cant. behhhhhhhhhh.
i am going to cut my hair tomorrow, the weather is so hot!
and borrow lots of books to read.


1973 - james blunt

simona, you're getting older
your journey's been etched
on your skin
simona, wish i had known that
what seemed so strong has
been and gone
i would call you up
every saturday night
and we'd both stay up til the morning light
and we sang
here we go again
although time goes by
i will always be
in a club with you in
1973
singing here we go again
simona, wish i was sober
so i could see clearly now
the rain has gone
simona, i guess its over
my memory plays out
to the same old songs
i would call you up every saturday night
and we'd both stay up til the morning light
and we sang
here we go again
although time goes by
i will always be
in a club with you in
1973
singing here we go again