we won't be seventeen forever;

HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU;

went with HWELENG to watch it. finally, an outing! after so damn long.

i think the movie is quite nice. it's one of the better and more meaningful romantic comedies :D

although, you probably shouldn't take my word for it, i am easily satisfied.

A GOOD FRIENDSHIP IS LIKE AN AWESOME PAIR OF SLIPPERS

it is comfortable and easy. it is worn on bare feet, like how a friend accepts you for yourself and not your pretenses or facades.

it is a companion for all weathers - in sunshine or in thunderstorm.

it can come in all shapes,sizes and colours, but its function always remains the same.

it never complains and never casts unnecessary judgement.

it sacrifices itself to protect your feet from the harsh pavement.

well, i don't like living under your spotlight.

i am grumpy today.

well, today was a very blah day.
i just went through the motions and stuff.
maybe it's because we didn't have bio with ms carter breathing down my neck so i felt so relaxed and bored.

it's ash wednesday today. had mass in school.
i think the choir rocked the acapella. :D

see what i mean!
i have nothing to blog about. i'm boring ):

i love the killers.

SPACEMAN - THE KILLERS

it started with a low light
next thing i knew they ripped me from my bed
and then they took my blood type
it left a strange impression in my head
you know that i was hoping,
that i could leave this star-crossed world behind
but when they cut me open
i guess i changed my mind.

well now i'm back at home and-
i'm looking forward to this life i lead
you know it's gonna haunt me
so hesitation to this life i give
you think you might cross over
you're caught between the devil and the deep blue sea
you better look it over, before you make that leap!

the song maker says it ain't so bad
dream maker's gonna make you mad
the spaceman says everyone look down! it's all in your head!

i'm gonna rain on your parade

functions test today was really bad.
i could come up with an answer to most of the questions! but you never know if it's right or wrong! 'cos it's all about the range and stuff. bah. i think i'm gna do a lot worse for this test than the other topics.

and i can't open my gmail!
this is so annoying.

ugh.

what made me unbeautiful ;

i really wish i were witty and interesting. but i'm not. so there.
i can only express my limited thoughts in weird, disjointed little sentences.

there's a ginormous swell of emotions wreaking havoc on my poor little heart.
it's not that i'm being emo, i just feel - out of sorts.
beh, it's not that i haven't already settled them, logically, i already know the solutions to my issues but they continue to grow and fester and become inflamed and pus-filled.

mondays are really bad days for me.
luckily, today's netball was cancelled due to bad weather! hitched a ride home in a black mercedes :D

i can't wait for :

friday dinner with caitlyn!
movie night!
dday! (dim sum day)
picnic in the park!

hahah, all food related.

i am going crazy. must be the hormones talking.
hahah, it's annoying how some people so obviously want to speak their mind but are so shy to. sometimes, i think it would be better for everyone if they just spit it out. for example :

DO YOU LOVE ME OR NOT!?!?
IF YOU DO, SWELL. TALK TO ME THEN! STOP FREAKING
IGNORING ME!
IF YOU DON'T, FINE, SCREW YOU. Well, actually i DON'T want to
screw you, 'cos you don't love me and i don't love you either! hmph.

bah, this weekend has been fairly uneventful.

this is what i did today :
church,ate,slept,ate and soon i will be sleeping again.
sheesh it's like all the calories i burn during the week is gained again during the weekends.

i am bored. and seriously, solitare is super addictive.
maybe it's because i have nothing better to do.
hahah i have a feeling i will suffer retribution for saying this.
and this time next week i will be drowning in piles of homework.

i can't take the distance
i can't take the miles
i can't take the time 'til i next see your smile.

so you sailed away,
to a grey-sky morning
so i had to say,
love can be so boring.

a supermassive black hole;

we had to perform a song for the grade 7s during "music assembly"

it was alright, although our singing was a bit mushed together and rushed. not really clear and everything. ah well.

the orchestra played pirates of the carribean. it was seriously awesome. our orchestra may not be the best orchestra or whatever but still, when they played it, you can feel it in your heart. you can taste the loyalty between brothers, you can feel the burn of passion in your veins, and the sound of the cymbal clashing feels like the waves are crashing on the shore. i really think that's what music is supposed to be. it stirs your heart, it causes you to feel.

it all sounds cheesy and stupid! but it's real. try it.

(edit)

hahah, i was never one for classical music. i never learnt how to appreciate it. in fact, i was never one for fine art! i was more of a pop culture/emo/indie sort of person.

but now its like, i'm being bombarded with culture! and art! and music! my right brain (or was it left?) is so much more active nowadays.

and i love this song. it's so haunting.

THOU LORD KNOWEST THE SECRETS OF OUR HEARTS -PURCELL

Thou knowest, Lord
the secrets of our hearts,
shut not, shut not,
thy merciful ears unto our prayers
but spare us, Lord, most holy
O God, most mighty
O God, most merciful Saviour
Thou most worthy Judge eternal
for any pains of death
to fall away from Thee.

Amen.

hohoho, i am so arty farty now.

little miss sunshine,

hello :D
as of yet, i still have no pending assignments. how cool is that?
but i am getting pretty bored. i haven't realised how much time i spend doing stuff.

went with christee to novena to eat crepes. (: i think one really cool thing about my school or maybe it's one really cool thing about growing up, is that its so much easier to make friends of the opposite gender? like, in secondary school, whenever people see a guy and a girl walking down the corridor together, everyone instantly assumes that they are a couple or something. but like now, boys and girls hang out together all the time? and there doesn't have to be any romantic connotations in everything.

speaking about growing up, i think it's so weird how much more independent i have become!
during the 2 or 3 months after o levels, i was so lazy! i would just laze around by myself at home all the time or like, wait for my parents to come get me and wait for food to appear and wait for things to happen. but now, i'm like packing my room by myself! it's a miracle.

i actually take the effort to make things neat and stuff now, partly because, no one in my family has ever gone through whatever i'm going through now, so i'm more or less on my own.

and nowadays, i just don't really feel the urge to blog anymore, 'cos i have a really great group of friends whom i can confide my true feelings in, thus, i don't feel the need to have to pour my feelings out onto my blog. also, there's facebook where i can post photos. so i don't really know why i'm still blogging. yeah, and it's not like i have a lot of people reading my blog! but to those who do, much love! xoxo.

it feels a bit weird, too. 'cos i don't think a lot of my friends own a blog. everyone's just on msn and facebook.

all in all, i'm really happy and satisfied with my life now. everything's going at a nice pace. i've learnt how to really manage my time too. and to pace myself? not try to do everything at one go.

i feel fulfilled.

i wanna watch watchmen!

i don't wanna be the girl who fears the silence
the quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
please don't tell me we've had that conversation
i won't remember,
save your breath
'cause what's the use?

ah, the night is calling
and it whispers to me, softly, come and play
but i, i am falling
and if i let myself go, i'm the only one to blame

all pending assignments as of now : COMPLETED!

i can't believe i could finish all of that, even with camp that burned up my whole weekend.
i am very relieved and happy. i can finally get some sleep.

Everywhere i'm looking now,
i'm surrounded by your embrace
baby, i can see your halo
you know you're my saving grace.

hello, back from camp.

i should stop attending so many camps. i will have a lot to compare with, and hence, i am feeling quite jaded about them. like "oh, i've done that before.." or " bah, it wasn't as fun as that time when.."

but still. i am loving my new school and new friends ( i still love the old ones too!)
there are a lot of politics and bitching among the school people, and i really feel like strangling some people, but you know, i am really thankful for the FFs and all my other awesomely cool friends 'cos we got each others backs. and futhermore, no school is perfect, and love is all about accepting flaws and loving them all the same.

SJII SCHOOL SONG

All through our college, a voice is resounding
Promptly respond to your duty's sweet call
Harken you all for the trumpet is sounding
Your Mater's proclaiming her watchword to all

Forward her children dear
Ever with hearts sincere
Render with joy to your Mater her due
All that is vile reject, Heaven will e'er protect
Heirs of St. Joseph, valiant and true!

Onward and upward, in life's ernest battle
Joyously bearing the brunt of the fight
Nobly forgiving for all that may pain you
And bravely defending the cause of the right.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.
LOVE YOU ALL :D

i'm off to Grade 11 Lasallian Camp.
although it makes a lot of things very inconvenient and i almost died trying to finish all the work in time, i still love these camp thingys.
besides the fact that i can't chew and i have to eat milo and oatmeal during the camp.
i hope i don't faint.

UNBEAUTIFUL - LESLEY ROY

don't hang up, can't we talk
so confused, it's like i'm lost
what went wrong,
what made you go
don't pretend, you don't know
this is me, i'm unchangeable

when did we fall apart?
or, did you lie from the start?
what you said, it was only you
i was blind, such a fool
thinking we were unbreakable

it was you and me, against the world
and you promised me, forevermore
was it something that i said?
was it something that i did?
'cause i gotta know what made me unbeautiful?

i've been told, what's done is done
to let it go and carry on
deep inside i know that's true
i'm stuck in time, stuck on you
when we were still untouchable.

hahah, for the educational benefit of mankind, i have decided to blog about deeper things.
or maybe i should just stop blogging.
i don't know.
i don't really have the time.
and i don't think my blog is really all that interesting.
and there's always facebook, right?

and besides,
i got nothing much to say except random quips about my normal life.
and about events that i'm attending.

maybe i SHOULD delete my blog.

booga-booga.

"Victory belongs to the most persevering."
- Napoleon Bonaparte

if i wasn't just somebody like me;

mondays aren't good days for me.

bleah.

youth mentor retreat was a blast.
i heart youth mentors.
it's the best service ever. :D

MUST HAVE DONE SOMETHING GOOD - RELIENT K

we should make jerseys, 'cause we make a good team
but yours would be better than mine
'cause you're out of my league
and i know that it's so cliche
to tell you that everyday
i spend with you is the new best day of my life
everyone watching us,
turns around with disgust
it's jealousy, they can see
that we've got it going on

and i'm racking my brain
for a new improved way
to let you know you're more to me that what i know how to say
you're okay with the way this is going to be
this is going to be
the best thing we've ever seen

if anyone could make me a better person,
you could
all i gotta say is
i must have done something good
i came along one day and
you rearranged my life
all i gotta say is i must have done something right

maybe i'm just lucky
'cause it's hard to believe
that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
and i know that it's so cliche to talk about you this way
but i'll push my inhibitions aside
it's so very obvious to everyone watching us
that we've got something real good going on

finally! i am making some progress on work!
i think i can actually finish my math assignment by friday (oh, joy! oh, rapture!)

and before you know it, more assignments pile up.
TOK presentation due on 18th Feb.
and the fact that i will have no time during the weekends doesn't help much.
i will have having camps for the next 2 weekends.

IB REQUIRES CONSTANT WORK. cheryl, that is seriously true.
you can't just not do the assignments and wait for the last month or so to rush everything.
'cos it's more of a accumulated thing. you learn bit by bit as you go along.
you will get seriously screwed if you leave everything to the last minute.
it will only end in disaster.

i guess this suits me anyway. i could never rush anything last minute.
my brain is not wired that way.

LENKA - THE SHOW

i'm just a little bit caught in the middle
life is a maze, love is a riddle
i don't know where to go
i can't do it alone
i've tried
and i don't know why

slow down
make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
'cause it's too much
yeah, it's a lot
to be something that i'm not

i'm a fool
out of love
'cause i just can't get enough

i'm just a little girl
lost in the moment
i'm so scared
but don't show it
i can't figure it out
and it's bringing me down
i've just gotta let it go
and just enjoy the show

the sun is hot
in the sky
just like a giant spotlight
the people follow the sign
and synchronise in time
it's a joke
nobody knows
they've got a ticket to the show

hahah, i have faith.
faith that things will all work out.
faith that my koch snowflake would not be screwed.
faith that my koch snowflake would be completed by friday.
faith that i will be happy like now for many many seconds, minutes, hours,days,weeks,months, years,decades,centuries,millenia..
faith that i will find true love.
faith that i will find genuine best friends at my new school. (well, maybe not. i'm really not sure.)

I WILL NEED A LOT OF FAITH.
BUT NVM, I HAVE FAITH THAT I HAVE ENOUGH FAITH.

really, faith's all you need to get through life. :D

SONG INSPIRATIONNNN!

SECRET VALENTINE - WE THE KINGS

soft kiss and wine,
what a pretty friend of mine.
we're finally intertwined
nervous and shy for the moment
we will come alive tonight

secret valentine

we'll write a song
that will turn out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

lay down, be still
don't worry
talk, they will
i'll be loving you
'til morning's first light
breaks tomorrow
i'll take care of you tonight

(THIS SONG IS VEH AWESOME IN ACOUSTIC.)

I'M JUST A GIRL - NO DOUBT

take this pink ribbon off my eyes
i'm exposed
and it's no big surprise
don't you think i know
exactly where i stand
this world is forcing me to hold your hand

'cause i'm just a girl
little ol' me
well, don't let me out of your sight
i'm just a girl
all pretty and petite
so don't let me have any rights

guess i'm some kind of freak
'cause they all sit and stare with their eyes
i'm just a girl
take a good look at me
just your typical prototype

i'm just a girl
living in captivity
your rule of thumb
makes me worrysome
i'm just a girl
what's my destiny
what i've succumbed to
is making me numb

i'm just a girl
my apologies
what i've become is so burdensome
i'm just a girl, lucky me
twiddle-dum, there's no comparison

i'm just a girl
i'm just a girl
in the world
...that's all you'll let me be!


(BTW this song is supposed to be sarcastic.)

today is very not my day D:

1. i have all higher level subjects today. plus chinese a2. and chinese during lunch.
2. i didn't eat much.
3. i had to sit out halfway during netball 'cos i was seeing stars.
4. I LOST MY THUMBDRIVE CONTAINING MY MATH ASSESSMENT.
5. NOW I HAVE TO RE-DO IT. D:
6. i spent half an hour looking for the stupid activation key.
7. i am very grumpy now.
8. i seriously need to pray.

but i am very happy 'cos i have a new computerrrrr! THANK YOU MOMMY AND DADDY :D
i feel bad for always spending their money ):

ARGH. DON'T DISTURB ME.