HELLO, TIME TO WAKE UP.
there aint much time left.
112, if you want to know.

and i am thoroughly annoyed.
with myself, and others?
i dont control the words that come out of my mouth,yeah.
no matter how hurting/annoying/obnoxious/bla.
i will just let it tumble out.
and then, like 10mins later,
i will be like. !@#$% what was that for.
its not about any particular incident,
its just always been this way.
so its like, yea. i dont necessarily mean things
the way they come out, its just that i dont think things through properly
before opening my mouth.
i dno.
you know they say
"if you've got nothing good to say,
dont say it."
amanda shall talk less from now on.

and UGH.
english assignments are annoying me.
why dont we just hand in hard copy!
like srsly.

just talk youself up
and tear yourself down
you've hit your one wall
now find a way around
well, whats the problem
you've got alot of nerve

so what did you think i would say
no you cant run away

i never wanted to say this
you never wanted to stay
i put my faith in you
so much faith in you
and you, just threw it away

im not so naive
my sorry eyes can see
the way you fight shy
of almost everything
well, if you give up
you'll get what you deserve

for a pessimist, im pretty optimistic. :D
xoxo.

I LOVE FRIENDS (YES, THE SHOW AND THE LIVING,
BREATHING,CARBON-BASED,SET FIRE TO EVERYTHING,
SATAY-STICK POKING KIND.)
especially my besties :D

QUOTE OF THE DAY :

"HEY LOOK, A TINY SALT SHAKER! HOW CUTE!"
"OH MY GOD, FOR TINY SALT!"

okay now that i type it it doesnt seem all that funny nemore.
-.-

{ the 7 things i hate about you
you're vain, your games, you're insecure
you love me, you like her
you make me laugh, you make me cry
i dont know which side to buy
your friends, they're jerks
when you act like them just know it hurts,
i wanna be with the one i know

i probably shouldnt say this
but sometimes i get so scared
when i think about the previous
relationship we shared
it was awesome
but we lost it
its not possible for me
not to care

the 7 things i like about you
your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
when we kiss
im hypnotised
you make me laugh
you make me cry
i guess thats both i'll have to buy
your hand in mine
when we're intertwined
everything's alright

the 7th thing i hate the most that you do :
you make me love you. }


ciao.
xoxo.

still on the hunt for new blogskin

but anyway, thought i'd share my latest obessession :D

{ fonny says its bad to blog.

but ah. i need something to keep me sane.}

cuteness unparalleled!

and now i am addicted to yu3 le4 bai3 fen1 bai3.

haiyah.
tried to find a new blogskin, to no avail!
couldnt find one i liked.
i wanted it to be like you know, new timetable,newblogskin,new term, new begginning.
ah well.

210608 - rachelchen's bday party

met with mienmien and leighleigh aka. hao jie mei
we went to watch zohan!
which is a retarded movie luh. kinda funny i suppose.
it doesnt really have a plot tho, like kungfu panda.
walked around aimlessly, trying to spend damien's gift vouchers.
spent 2 hrs walking around. and bought everything within the last 15mins before we had to rush to bukitbatok.
met a funny angmoh on the bus.
met cherylleong bestbestie, jamiewongwong bestie , amanda ng and jianlongwinarto.

bascially, all i did was :
get entertained by watching jamie and damien try to kill each other :x
make fun of ashleigh's sexual orientation
argue abt how cooked chickenwings look like
get hurt by love (sataysticks)
sat on a wall for 1hr with bestbestbestie.
watch jamie get drenched
get drenched
dodge waterbombs
talk about everything/anything under the sun

{ your words are melodies but, they burn. }

and now if you'll excuse me, i need to go dissect my monstrosity of a file.

me loves humpty & crazywomanwhowantstosetfiretoeverything :D

hols are dead. D:
i have lost the motivation to blog ): i dont know what to say anymore.
instead of sharing how i feel, i shall just post endless lyrics and keep changing my blogskin :D
i dunno, time to wake up and face the music?
physics retest is tomorrow.
and im scared. because its like, how well you understand how things rise and fall and move faster/slower and why the thing boil/doesnt evaporate/doesnt move not how much you study or whether you can memorise all the SI units (did i mention the SI unit of light intensity is cd? 411 class tee must be like 10000 cd.) or whether you can list out all the common applications of conduction,convection and radiation.
even if you can freaking reproduce the textbook word for word, it doesnt help.
so its basically a do or die thing.
therefore, i conclude, im pretty dead.

and prelim.
i hope to get single digit (!) for my L1R5.
which means my english/chinese cannot be getting B4. and my comb. humans. must be like B3.
which means my elec. hist cannot be a C6. and i really dont see how im supposed to be doing better than midyear when prelims is harder.

and my parents are planning the year-end trip (hopefully to california, but chances are slim.)
it seems so soon!but there's just that irritating little thing called olvls inbetween now and then.

and its been a year.
am i over it? maybe.probably.
i hope you're happy.
i hope you'll find the one you want.

quiz from cheryl's blog.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
betrayed? i really dont know, i cant remember what having a lover feels like :x
i will be crushed, i suppose.
2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to become a (?) and help save the world! hahah.
3. What will your dream wedding be like?
eh, just a simple one? like at church, with a reception, with my close friends and relatives?
i mean its like, its the person you're gna spend the rest of your life with, you dont need anything more to make the occasion better? and besides, save money to go on an expensive honeymoon :D
4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
no, i know what i want. i just dont know how im gna get there.
5. What's your ideal lover like?
i have very high expectations! not enough space to list all ):
preferably cute. preferably musically-inclined. smart!
able to have long, thought-provoking conversations with me.(enough to entertain me for a lifetime?) generous. spontaneous.
okok i shall stop, not good enough for someone like that anyway! :x
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving. even if the person doesnt love you back, at least you have something to hold onto.
whats the use of having the whole world love you, but having no one to love in return?
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
well, i depends? if there's no hope , im not gna wait.
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
move on?
9. Is being tagged fun?
i suppose. i hardly reply tho :3
10. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
married! (hahah, hopefully. im like the eldest kid in my generation! the only hope for my grandmamas to see their grandbabies anytime soon.)
11. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family and friends.
12. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
cherylleong. bestbestbestie! we will laugh at anything, especially each other and share the same tastes in many things (esp. food! nonono chicken rice.) and she's my love.
13. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
i'd rather be..happy? married but poor i suppose. provided the spouse is THE ONE.
14. What's the first thing you do every morning?
get yelled at by my mom, wake up, look around, and fall asleep again. :x
15. Would you give it all in a relationship?
duh. whats the point of holding back?
16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
depends on who? and its like im 'in love' with both. meaning i cant really choose right?

i cancelled off the last 2 qns 'cos they were pretty dumb.
and now, before we go, some lyrics!

better off alone - marie digby

i was naive
not to let you go
when the time was right
i was a fool
living in a dream
that i thought would last

but i know
you will try to prove me wrong
but its what i've gotta do

i think you're mistaken
im sorry to say
im really just a loser
standing in your way
i think you've forgotten
all of your plans
you see, i never meant to be here
i think you should know
you're better off alone.

and its clear, to me
that everything has changed
'cause nothing that we do
feels the same anymore
and i'll admit
i'll take the blame
maybe we just moved too fast
how could we expect
something like this to last?

you and i
we were standing and watching us fall apart
so let me go
and move along.

{ i wonder, how am i supposed to feel,
when you're not here?
'cause i've burned
every bridge i've ever built
when you were here
i still try
holding onto silly things
oh why?
all the possibilities,
im sure you've heard.

pain, make your way to me,
to me.
'cause i'll always be just so inviting
if i ever start to think straight
this heart will start a riot in me

i cant trust myself with anything but this. }

THIS SONG IS THE SUPER BIG-ASS LOVE! I NEVER GET TIRED OF IT.
( though, fickle as i am, i probably would, sometime in the near future. like, tomorrow :x )

SAY IT AGAIN - MARIE DIGBY

the thing about love
is i never saw it coming
it kinda crept up and took me by surprise
and now there's a voice inside my heart
thats got me wondering
is this true, i want to hear it one more time

move in a little closer
take it to a whisper
just a little louder

say it again, for me
'cos i love the way it feels
when you're telling me that i'm
the only one who blows your mind
say it again, for me
its like the whole world stops to listen
when you tell me you're in love
say it again

the thing about you
is you know just how to get me
you talk about us
like there's no end in sight
the thing about me
is that i really want to let you
open that door and walk into my life

and it feels like
its the first time
that anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
and never in my whole life
have i heard words so beautiful
as when you say my name

say it again.

SUPER BIG THANKS/LOVE/HUGS TO THE 20906 GANG FOR THE SUPER BIG-ASS PRESENT! :D
a simple 'happy birthday' would have been sufficient, but you people went and put in so much effort!
xoxo.
{ to cheryl : thank God you didnt gimme the present on friday when i had church camp. this is one of the many reasons why you are my bestbestbestie. and another would be how even after like a zillion years of not talking, we can still bond over the most random things, i.e. chicken skin and whatnot.♥ we need to go out. :D }

spent the whole day with lele doing maths. ( oh, the horror! )
and seeing as the 2nd week of holidays is almost over, i am being super unproductive (not productive? improductive? inproductive? whatever.)
i have only finished. 1english, 1 physics, 1chem.bits of chinese. and THATS ALL.
can you believe it? people have finished like 13 chem papers +++.
but somehow, my brain has gone on holiday in antartica or somewhat, because i am doing things super slowly. like for no apparent reason, i will stone for like 2hrs at the same question.

God, help me.

hellohello :D
my 16th birthday was awesome!
i thought i wouldnt have much time to celebrate 'cos i had a super busy day that day.
but early in the morning,
tanyanting and xeniateo came with a big piglet thing :D
then after english, met up with my twins and more presents.
ate a scrumptious lunch at pizza hut :D
then later, went home after tuition for dinner.
suddenly my godparents come and pick me up!
i thought it was like to go out for dessert/coffee at starbucks or whatever, but they brought me to the night safari instead :DDDD
i got 'sabo-ed' to go on stage during the animal show thingy.
and i got a free scoop of ben&jerry's too.
they also bought me Snowy, the polar bear.
they are srsly the coolest people ever.

the next day, went for church camp.
and they celebrated my birthday again!
with a big coffee cheesecake thing.
with everyone around me.

i've never felt so loved before in my life!
i feel really blessed to know so many great people in my life, and i dont really feel that i deserve so much love, but i'll try my best :D

TRUCKLOADS OF THANKS/LOVE/HUGS/KISSES TO:

MOMMY! DADDY! NAT! CHERYLLEONG! SEETHWELE! SEETHWELENG! GODMAMA! GODPAPA! ASHLEIGHCHOOCHOOTRAIN! LIMLIANGJIE BUNMAN! XENIATEO! TANYANTING! NGHUIJUAN! LIMHWEEMIN! TANYINGYING! PANGCHUHUI! NGSOKTENG! EMELIALOH! RACHELCHEN! CAITLYNLEE! LYNETTEQUEK! KHOZITING! SIREDWIN! KOHJUNWEE! BENEDICTGABRIELJADENWOON! LENNONIGNATIUSLOY! BELMONDELIJAH 'BELLEE' LEE! KOR! HOWARDSOEDARGO! DANIELZHENG! AMANDATAN! YUHAO! YUNLUM! WEIJIN! WEIKANN! EMELIA (FROMCHURCH)! ANGELA! CAROL! CHARLES! NOEL! VAL! LUVINIA! LEON! MERABEL! DANIELLE! YUBO!PASCALENE!JESSEBELLE!EVELYN!TAYWEIJIE! ...

AND MANYMANYMORE!

shall post pictures, soon.