hello people.
in one months time it will be..
midyears midyears midyears!
then soon it will be..
prelims prelims prelims!
then aft that it will be..
olvls olvls olvls!

ah yes, time seems to pass so quickly and yet so slowly.
it seems like march holidays has passed an eternity ago, but in reality its only the 3rd week of term 2.
me and hweleng were talking, and we decided,
we'd rather olvls hurry up and come alr? instead of having to do all this prep, just take the stupid exam and get it over with alr.
speaking of which, my ss test was totally screwed!(among other things)
im really gna need some divine intervention in order to do well for midyears and prelims and olvls.
in fact, i think i need a miracle.

yay, im gna buy my bigbigbig pencilcase tmr! (if i find one i like.)


oh no. i dont like.

i was in the toilet, when i suddenly thought of this song that was frm quite long ago thats pretty nice!

Far Away - Nickelback

this time, this place
misused, mistakes
too long, too late
who was i to make you wait
just one chance
just one breath
just in case there's just one left
cause you know..

that i love you
i've loved you all along
and i miss you
far away for far too long
i keep dreaming
that you'll be with me and you'll never go
stop breathing
if i dont see you anymore

on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
cause with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i wont give up
cause you know..


and we forgot where we were
and we lost track of time
and we sang to the wind as we danced through the night

and we sang away,away,away,away
and the voices rang like the angels sang
singing away,away,away,away
and we danced on into the night


perhaps this ,too, will be shortlived. just like all the others.

And finally,
RCIY 07/08! FIRST EVER BATCH OF RCIY AT ST. IGGY'S CHURCH.
AND ITS THE ULTIMATE LOVE!
im not gna go into detail abt how i felt and everything, cos there are just no words to describe it! it was just a beautiful night, awesome beyond all reason.

YAY. BAPTISM/CONFIRMATION/SLEEPOVER/YESTERDAY TOTALLY ROCKEDXZXZ!
shall post many many photos.starting from japan trip last yr! which is like 9mths ago ^.^'


LOL the expression on my face is like. ewww. what's that.

xiong mei! :D














wearing the pretty yugatas!














booya, guess who.

squeeee.

the scenery there is like, freaking awesome.

whee, tempuras + siok peng / gladys.
& why are my eyes always closed in photos -.-














shoeeeee!













2 retards.















uber cute little girl, with rly good looking parents.













uber cool black coloured coca-cola bottle

uber great friends, kapo and kaykay.

GOSH.

EVERYTHING'S HAPPENING TMR!
I CAN HARDLY SLEEP.
well actually i sorta live for this kinda moments.
what would life be without anticipation, suspense, anxiety, paranoia..
those emotions all prove that hey, you've got something worth living for!
and not bide away your existence meaninglessly and be like. ho hum. another day. another 14hrs of maplestory.and 10 hrs of hw,eating and sleeping.

HAHAH, IM IN A GOOD MOOD TODAY.
( and will try to be for the rest of my life)

this song is rly cute!

if i kissed you
would fireworks fly
would angels sing with lollipops
would dinosaurs cry
would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
if i kissed you

if i kissed you
what would michaelangelo say
would he still have sculpted David
would we be immortalised in clay
would the poets write of love like ours
would John Donne have his say
if i kissed you

you could be one in a million
you could be the one for me
but i guess i'll never know
if i never try
so i'll just have to grab you in my arms
and kiss you

if i kissed you
would you lose track of time
would you feel a surge of happiness
running up your spine
would you run naked in the street
with a tattoo of my name on your behind

hahah! and here's a song dedicated to all my besties : cherylleong,jamiewong,seethweleng and hwele. as well as all my np/CCCGT loves! yanting,huijuan,yingying,hwee min,chuhui,xenia,xinhua,hazel and jiaxin & MANLY ma'am fiona.
funnily, this song is called SHELTER.

what's wrong
what's getting you down
is it something i might have said
you're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red

i know you've been through rough times
kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
so dont tell me that nobody gets you
'cos im standing at your corner
knocking at your door,
you dont have to be alone

just call my name
let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
i wanna ease your pain
help me understand
let me be your shelter, my friend

we share a bond
you and i we belong
like coffee and morning trains
you strip my defenses
i catch your pretenses
the same blood runs through our veins

i swore i'd be your lifeline
made a vow that i'd surround you with
love at every milestone
i'll listen when nobody gets you
im still standing at your corner

YAY, AFTER MONTHS OF TRAINING/PREPARATION, ITS ALL COME DOWN TO THIS.
JIAYOU EVERYONE! AND I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW. ;D

man oh man, i rlyrlyrly hope my mom lets me go sleepover ):

were you there when they crucified my Lord?

rawrrrrrs.
im so tired!
but its okay. this week is a very exciting week for me!
BECAUSE...

IM GETTING BAPTISED ON SATURDAY!
& CAMPCRAFT COMP IS ON SATURDAY!


tmr. Holy Thursday/ ccc training / holy macaroni i have 3 tests tmr. (chem/bio/chi)
fri. Good Friday
sat. CCC! Easter Vigil/ sleepover at auntie v's house!

hahah, im so excited!
and btw, my baptism name is seraphina.
you can call me that from now on. ( i dno how quickly i will respond tho :x)

im worried.
i dno, i've been feeling pretty emotional since yesterday.
normally, im pretty heartless. i dno whats with me.
ms wong just announced :
emath midyears - everything from s1 to s4.
amath midyears - chapter 1 to 16.

it finally struck me.
like i had been running away and avoiding reality all this while, and a huge mountain showed up right infront of me.
there's no other way around it other than to climb.
this is it? the begginning of the end.

so morbid and depressing eh?
im probably a natural worrywart. probably inherited that from my mom.
the urge to leave the country has never been so strong.
i really wonder how im going to survive all this.
im gna really need God on this one.


sigh.

heyyyy.
i just came back frm church camp today.
oh man! rciy 07/08 is the absolute love! :D
and its like, this is our last camp together alr ):
baptism's coming up, and after that, who knows?
we're all in different stages of our lives now, busy with jc life, olvls..
dont know if we will still remain as close as ever?
rly rly rly hope we all will still remain in close contact with each other!
ah, read all the little notes i got frm the past camps and stuff, it was so warm and fuzzy.
im feeling so emotional now! okok. relax.
yeah i will never forget all the fun times we've had, the friendships we've forged..
i hope that you all remain happy people always!
yay God bless.

gosh! my hands are dead aft yesterday's special training. D:
and the rest of the weekend is gone, so i'll have to finish most of my hw today D:
on the plus side,
danny phantom is on tv! loves.

oh kay. i shall go now.
i still needa pack my bag for church camp.

i rly rly feel like. locking myself in the toilet and singing my lungs out.
srsly.

ooh la la.
spent the whole day freezing my butt off yesterday.
had the funny spf badge photo taking! so unglam D:
and the funny redox test.inclusive of a few awe-inspiring, life-changing, motivational speeches.
and my sister has chickenpoxxxx! oh man. its highly contagious! and i have loads of stuff to do this week.
and its so weird that we were looking forward to campcraft comp only to have it suddenly postponed and it was like anti-climax?

and i think holidays are actually worse than normal school days. on normal school days, we get a relatively normal-sized mountain of homework. but during holidays (even though its only 1 friggin' week) they think : oh goody, 24hrs a day times 7 days a week = 168 hours for them to do homework! and THEN, they say : better start studying for midyears. dont waste your time during the hols. -.- sheeeeeesh.

and i wna take lit in JC!
and i cant wait to go to america ;D


quote of (yester)day:
"YOU NEVER SAY!"
"YOU NEVER ASK HOW CAN I SAY!"

"YOU NEVER SAY HOW CAN I ASK!"

and so the neverending (but hilarious) argument continues...

and i want to watch stepup2! :D its out alr.


i need something to sing about.

me : mm, emo and angry, just the way i like it.
not ready to make nice - dixie chicks

forgive, sounds good
forget, im not sure i could
they say time heals everything
but im still waiting

im through with doubt
nothing's left for me to figure out
i've paid a price
and i'll keep paying

im not ready to make nice
im not ready to back down
im still mad as hell and i
dont have time to go round and round and round
its too late to make it right
i probably wouldnt if i could
'cause im mad as hell
and i cant do what it is
you think i should


and a certain someone looks postively yummy in uniform. :D

woohs. im feeling surprisingly cheerful and optimistic today
considering im usually an emo kid with a long fringe who sulks in a corner and slashes her wrist periodically...





JUST KIDDING ;D

i love it when ncc goes shooting. mr fonseka wont be around! hahah caught z s throughout half of english lesson and finished a compre in half an hour! (include summary)
im proud of myself ;P
and because of that i am suddenly very high about studying and i think i shall go finish all my hw in record time. including a chinese expository. yikes.
ahahaha. its days like these where i wish i could make how i feel into a pill and keep for 'lousy' days.

im feeling totally retarded today.

'I TOLD YOU, IM CLAUSTROPHOBIC!'
'nice try, squidward, but there's no santa claus here.'

hahahah, hilarious.


hello my friend, we meet again.
its been awhile
where do we begin
feels like forever
within my heart a memory
a perfect love that you gave to me
oh i remember

we've seen our share of ups and downs
oh how quickly life can turn around
in an instant
it feels so good to reunite
within yourself and your mind
lets find peace there.

sara bareilles - love song

head under water
and you tell me
to breathe easy for awhile
the breathing gets harder
even i know that
made room for me
its too soon to see
if im happy in your hands
im usually hard to hold on to

blank stares at blank pages
no easy way to say this
you mean well but you make this hard on me

im not gonna write you a love song
'cos you ask for it
'cos you need one
you see, im not gonna write you a love song
'cos you tell me
its make or break in this
if you're on your way
im not gonna write you to stay
if all you have is leaving
im gonna need a better reason
to write you a love song
today

i learned the hard way
that they all say
things you wanna hear
my heavy heart sinks deep down under
you and your twisted words
your help just hurts
you're not what i thought you were
say hello, to high and dry

convinced me to please you
made me think that
i need this too
im trying to let you
hear me as i am

promise me,
you'll leave the light on
to help me see
with daylight, my guide, gone
'cos i believe
there's a way
you can love me.