supermassive

there are some days, when the world just annoys me so,
and i just want to sit in a corner and punch the wall.
!@#$%^&*()_+sdlkjfbncnvlidf.

i'm a walking disaster,

maybe, we should stop chasing temporary 'high's , and accept that, yes, this is as good as it gets, as yes, i am happy with that. maybe, we should look for who we are, and not who others want us to be.
maybe, we should cherish the precious few who see us through the tumultuous journey of life instead of hankering for acceptance of the multitudes who scarcely know us.

just, maybe.

MASS AFFIRMATIONNNNNNNN TIME. (:

sometimes, I wonder, if there's any point at all.

if there's somebody, calling me on,
he's the one.

are you the one?

its not complicated, i was so jaded,

HERE'S TO THE NIGHT - EVE 6

So denied,
so I lied.
Are you the 'now or never' kind?
In a day,
and a day, love,
I'm going to be gone for good again.

Are you willing to be had?
Are you cool with just tonight?

Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well,
here's to the night we felt alive,
here's to the tears you knew you'd cry,
here's to goodbye,
tomorrow's gonna come too soon.

Put your name,
on the line,
Along with place and time.
Want to stay,
not to go,
I want to ditch the logical.

All my time,
is froze in motion.
Can't I stay an hour or two more?

Don't let me let you go.

frozen over

the grade 12s are graduating tomorrow ):

goodbye, grade 12s! you guys are the bestest <3 i will miss you guysssss. (and you.)

the weather is so cold, i feel like i'm frozen over - literally and figuratively.

i'll just hide here.

WINTER SONG - SARA BAREILLES & INGRID MICHAELSON

This is my winter song,
December never felt so wrong.
'Cause you're not where you belong,
inside my arms.

I still believe in summer days,
the seasons always change,
and life will find a way.

I'll be your harvester of light,
and send it out tonight,
so we can start again.

Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?

This is my winter song,
December never felt so wrong.
'Cause you're not where you belong,
inside my arms.

This is my winter song to you,
the storm is coming soon,
it rolls in from the sea.

My love,
a beacon in the night,
my words,
will be your light.
To carry you to me.

Is love alive?

whatever tomorrow brings, i'll be there.

hahaha today amanda was blur.

she forgot to load her chinese interactive oral ppt slides onto her thumbdrive and sunshine was all ready to present and all >< we had to occupy ourselves with poetry analysis for the remainder of the lesson.

" Where do you find the time to do so many things? " - Bradian

I have no idea, actually. I just do things. I like doing things :D It makes me happy when I see a job well done. It makes me happy when I see that what I've done makes a difference in someone else's life. Whenever I'm not doing something, I wonder if I've forgotten to do something ><

It makes me sad when I search for 'love' on Tumblr and I see a lot of photographs depicting sexual scenes (both hetero and homo) and hear so many hip hop songs on the radio going 'take yo shirt offfff~' and well yeah, love is free and open to interpretation but i don't think love = sex? and I just think modern pop culture has so many better avenues to explore other than raunchy and explicit content.

'everybody wants change, but nobody wants to change.'

i really hope the events planned for end of this year/beginning of next year will be successful! o:

all the people on the street know.

amanda is bored out of her brain o: the editting of chem ia and world lit is possibly more tiring than the writing itself. *whinewhinecomplaincomplain*

ITS RAINING MEN, HALLELUJAH.

3 MORE DAYS, LUV (:

Amanda's incredible holiday (or not) schedule.

19/11/2009 - G7 and G8 movie night.
20/11/2009 - Dry run for Graduation Ceremony
21/11/2009 - Graduation
24/11/2009 - Wizard of Orz
26/11/2009 - Rendezvous
05/12/2009 - SAT
07/12/2009 - Depart for NLLC
14/12/2009 - Return from NLLC
24/12/2009 - Christmas Eve :D
02/01/2009 - Facil training session.
04/01/2009 - 08/01/2009 - Welcome Week 2010
...

and inbetween that, EE research, and random dates (:

Cheeriosssss.

i know what you're thinking, baby, why aren't you listening?

The raindrops pound softly on every surface it touches. Colours, smells, and feelings are intensified and solidified, darkened, like the rich, damp earth, calling forth life in the form of exposed bleach-white roots - immeasurable, infinite and copious. The echo of footsteps fades into oblivion as one leaves unruffled concrete behind, onto the warm humus we go, rudimentary and imperfect, but always an adventure.

the rain always puts me in a thinking mood (:

you found me,

who i am.who i'm not.who i want to be. who knew.i don't feel so bad. i'm so sorry darling, did i do the wrong thing? oh, what was i thinking? don't you care about me anymore? and i don't believe that anybody feels the way about i do about you now. it can creep up inside you and consume you. p-p-p-pokerface. so just pull the trigger. everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going. lucky we're in love in every way, lucky to be coming home someday. they don't know how long it takes, waiting for a love like this. i feel it crash against my skin.

how did you get here, under my skin.

amanda loves lazy saturday mornings where she doesn't have to wake up early and gets to eat soon kueh for breakfast :D
amanda taps away at the keyboard in futility, gets bored and wanders into the kitchen every 10 minutes in search of some tasty morsel.
amanda munches on rice crackers and pitted prunes, not at the same time.
amanda is taking the SATs in less than a month, she is grossly unprepared. :/
amanda gets incredibly uncomfortable when speaking to certain people, she feels the heat of their judgemental eyes searing through her and ends up saying the wrong thing anyway.
amanda's biologist grandma is so cute, helping her with her mould experiment despite her old age. :D

in this mad world,

in a desperate bid to concentrate on chinese homework, amanda resorts to listening to chinese radio while working. it is not working very well. amanda very much yearns to venture into the happy world of slumber.

bah.

arrr!

the internet is annoying me. :C

have i mentioned how one of my favourite movies of all time is Pirates of the Carribean? <3