turn the lights off, carry me home.

in one week's time,
IB examinations for the grade twelves will begin.
in two weeks' time,
we would have finished our group 4 project.
in three weeks' time,
we would have finished our CAS for this year.
in four weeks' time,
you would have graduated.
in seven weeks' time,
you'll be in the army.

and so the short run melds into the long run.

say it ain't so, i will not go.

i am so in love with this song.

BRICK BY BORING BRICK - PARAMORE

She lives in a fairy tale,
somewhere too far for us to find.
Forgotten the taste and smell,
of a world that she's left behind.
It's all about exposure, the lens,
I told her,
the angles are all wrong.
Now she's ripping the wings off of butterflies.

Keep your feet on the ground,
when your head's in the clouds.

Well, go get your shovel
and we'll dig a deep hole
to bury the castle.

So one day, he found her crying,
coiled up on the dirty ground.
Her prince finally came to save her,
and the rest you can figure out.
But it was a trick,
and the clock struck twelve,
well, make sure to build your house
brick by boring brick,
or the wolf's going to blow it down.

Well you built up a world of magic,
because your real life is tragic.

If it's not real,
you can't hold it in your hand.
You can't feel it with your heart,
and I won't believe it.

don't you just love how first day back at school always entails deadlines and new assignments.
i reel from the sheer weight.
i feel a sudden unexplained craving for fast food.
on a lighter note, got back exam results today :D
i did reasonably well, still not a 40 though (:

when i look at the stars,

AS LOVERS GO - DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL

She said, " I've got to be honest,
you're wasting your time if you're fishing around here."
And I said, " you must be mistaken,
I'm not fooling, this feeling is real."
She said, " you've got to be crazy.
What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?"

"You've got wits,
you've got looks,
you've got passion,
but I swear you've got me all wrong."

I'll be true
I'll be useful
I'll be cavalier
I'll be yours, my dear.
And I'll belong to you if you just let me through.

This is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it
by hesitating.
This is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made,
what's the sense in waiting?

run, don't walk, the sky is falling through.

nuuuuuuuuuu. everything that has been on slow-mo for the past month or so is going to be put back into fast forward tomorrow. but i am quite excited, i suddenly feel like im really growing up and going places. i was getting bored of staying at home all day anyway, im really a workaholic at heart. 8)

YE GRANDE PLAN OF MY LIFE.

1. make it through this year
2. study for SATs (5th Dec)
3. make it through next year o:
4. apply for university in the US/Singapore/Australia/ God-knows-where.
5. get a degree
6. get a job
7. get married
8. yadda yadda.

gosh, it all seems so boring now that i think about it. but i guess life is mundane. it's the little random quirky things you find along the way that make it worthwhile and interesting.

and it's funny how, so many people in the region are experiencing some form of disaster in their lives - be it financial or natural, and all of us still happily live in our cosy little shopping mall saturated bubble, never having experienced the least bit of trouble in any form before. how fortunate we are, or maybe not.

schoolschoolschool, the place where it all happens - passion, hard work, laughter, love.
come on Amanda, you can do this.

this is the last time i abandon you.

its weird, the impact IB makes on me.

This afternoon :

'im very borrrrred.'
'go find something to do. you need a hobby.'
'YOU'RE my hobby :P'
'a hobby can't be a living thing! go look for the meaning of hobby on wiki or something. you need to relax and enjoy life. when's the last time you did something fun?'
'.... i don't remember.'

which got me trying to remember what my hobbies are, and i suddenly remember spending a lot of time reading online manga (: i used to be really interested in manga and all that shiz, but ever since the IB invasion, drawing books and manga cabinet remain largely untouched.

i came upon a realisation today :

i have nothing left to prove to anyone. it seems as though all my life, i've always been trying to prove something to someone, meet someone's expectations, gain someone's affection, yadda yadda, but i finally realise that there are a lot of people in my life who accept me for who i am and don't judge me for what i do. well, obviously, there are still parents, but that's a different story.
i don't actually have that much to worry about.

hahah, i hate it when you're right. but somehow, you're always right ><

oh, we're not the same.

amanda rather enjoys the colour purple.
amanda doesn't want this holiday to end.
amanda likes playing wii at alyssaluv's house.
amanda likes the fat cat.
amanda loves the movie 500daysofsummer.
amanda likes to laugh. A lot.
amanda wants to go swimming again.
amanda wants to go to the beach.
amanda has great plans for the future -insert awesome theme song music here-
amanda hugs snowy, the polar bear, single father of snuffles and moony.
amanda likes hanging out with you.

♥

'It's off, between me and summer.'
'Was it ever on?'
'It could have been, in a world where good things happen to me.'
'Well, that's not where we live.'
- 500 days of summer

we are just misguided ghosts.

amanda is happy, boyfriend is the best :D THANKYOUUU!

meh. reality bites.

the gears are always turning,

I AM (still) BORED.

but i have taken to managing a farm on Country Story (on fb!) to pass the time.
and i've finished my ee plan.
and i'm almost halfway through my first SAT practice paper.
yay me. hahaha, i am a much more interesting blogger when im feeling stressed/angry/depressed, such is the way of the world (:

a perfect dinner:

1. egg fried with vermicelli
2. vegetable curry (with generous servings of eggplant, lady fingers and cabbage)
3. stir-fried potato strips with dried chilli
4. fish maw soup (with generous servings of scallops, fish balls, vermicelli, abalone, etc.)
5. a lot of white rice.

plus lemon meringue pie for dessert!

other stuff i like:

tempura udon
salmon sashimi
crab cream croquette
ramenramenramen
kimchi soup
pepper lunch sukiyaki
white wine pasta
grilled chicken


HI MOM I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS :P

teehee. im getting fat - and hungry.

and everyone inside the mechanism is yearning to get out.

IM. BORED. D:

down with mega-conglomerates producing addictive television shows and what not. the character's lives always seem to be so much more interesting than our sad,mediocre existence. ><

straight through the heart,

LAST DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY :D

tmrtmrtmrtmrtmrtmrrrrr. i can't wait.
i just wasted about 2/3 hours of studytime being locked outside my house/eating lunch/checking email ><

anyway, these are the things i have to do after exams :

1. study for SAT (it never ends.)
2. buy 'brand new eyes' :D (hinthint.)
3. read 'wicked' and 'a lion among men' :D (hinthint with a cherry and vanilla icecream on top!)
4. learn how to ride a bike ><
5. play my guitar or learn how to ><
6. finish all that ib stuff. world lit, ee, written tasks, etc.etc.


aaaand now to plunge myself into the world of differential calculus, statistical probability, distributions, markets and failure.

ciao.

life inside the music box ain't easy.

because it's after a week of exams, on a nice and toasty friday afternoon.

pictures from wordboner and deviantart and my collection (:

you light,
the sky,
up above me.
a star,
so bright
you blind me.
if walls break down,
i will comfort you.
if angels cry,
oh i'll be there for you.
you've saved my soul,
don't leave me now.
leaves are blowing down the streets
wind crawling up our knees
somebody get the keys
rain is flowing from the sky
but no fear in our eyes,
we're ready to fly.
sing us a song,
and we'll sing it back to you,
but what would it be without you?
this heart, it beats,
beats for only you.

overheard from the living room :

'if da-jie (me) can't get good marks, who can?'

sigh.