they try to tell me how to feel,

emails regarding school issues are starting to flood my inbox.
aaaand its only 4 more days before school begins.
i am torn. Torn between my love for school, my love for the buzz of activity, the busy-ness of life, reprieve from this infernal boredom and the endless stream of tasks, expectations, stress, assessments, drama, tension and so on.
i somehow can't wait for school to begin, but i don't want it to come :/
as with a lot of things in life, i guess, the only way out is forward.





the future freaks me out,
i love you and that's all i really know.