i believe in a thing called love.

baaaaack with 2 weeks of holiday left.
feels good to be home.
feels good to have free time to pursue my interests.
feels good to enjoy a nice bowl of mee pok :D

i don't really have anything to blog about D: but let me ramble on. i don't know, its like you can't completely be free to express yourself because you don't know who might be reading and all the weird misconceptions people form about you from a blog. conversely, you could say, why worry if you've got nothing to hide? true, but some feelings and opinions are best reserved for yourself and a trusted circle of friends. but i guess its a good outlet.

its just suffocating when you realise no matter where you go or what you do you're always subjected to the judgements of others, even more so when people have place labels on you, like 'Catholic' or 'Student Council', when your actions suddenly become representative of the institution you are affiliated with, sad, but true, i guess. and somedays you just want to say, give me a break, i'm only seventeen and human, i make mistakes, i fall in love, i breathe, i eat, i poop, i'm just as lost as you are, and i'm trying my best.

and no, this is not related to any particular incident, i just think we all could afford to be a little more forgiving and understanding, that everyone has their scars and burdens to bear. (:

FIDELITY - REGINA SPEKTOR

i never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
i got lost in the sounds

i hear in my mind
all these voices
i hear in my mind
all these words
i hear in my mind
all this music

and it breaks my heart.
when it breaks my heart.

suppose i never,ever met you
suppose we never fell in love.
suppose i never, ever
let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
suppose i never ever saw you
suppose you never ever called
suppose i kept on singing love songs
just to break my own fall
just to break my fall.

and it breaks my heart.