i tear my heart open

thanks for all the support, guys :D manymuchinfinitelove.

i've been told i look like a little boy/monkey (:
i can imagine how hard it must be for girls my age to suddenly lose their hair. at least i had a choice in the matter. but i can't imagine how it must be for someone to lose their hair against their will,against their best hopes and wishes, and to be reminded of it everytime they pass by a reflective surface.

phew, its a tough life.

SITTING, WAITING, WISHING - JACK JOHNSON

now i was sitting, waiting, wishing
that you believed in superstitions
then maybe you'd see the signs
but Lord knows that this world is cruel.
no, i ain't the Lord
no, i'm just a fool.
learning, in loving somebody
don't make them love you.

must i always be waiting, waiting on you?
must i always be playing, playing your fool?

i sing you songs
i dance a dance
i gave your friends all a chance
putting up with them wasnt worth never having you.
maybe you've been through this before
but its my first time
so please ignore
the next few lines
'cause they're directed at you.

i keep playing your cards
but its not my scene
won't this plot not twist?
i've had enough mystery.
keep building it up,
then shooting me down.
but i'm already down.
just wait a minute,
sit and wait.

well, if i was in your position
i'd put down my ammunition
and i'd wonder why it's taken me so long
but Lord knows, i'm not you
and if i was, i wouldn't be so cruel.
'cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do.