sunshine and kisses,

learning new things is never easy, especially for someone with a phobia of failure and disappointment like me. but i guess, its alright to fail. its alright to be disappointed. that's life, innit. perhaps the most important thing is how we live each day fully, loving like we've never been hurt, singing like we've never been off-key, laughing like no one's listening.

i believe in a thing called love.

baaaaack with 2 weeks of holiday left.
feels good to be home.
feels good to have free time to pursue my interests.
feels good to enjoy a nice bowl of mee pok :D

i don't really have anything to blog about D: but let me ramble on. i don't know, its like you can't completely be free to express yourself because you don't know who might be reading and all the weird misconceptions people form about you from a blog. conversely, you could say, why worry if you've got nothing to hide? true, but some feelings and opinions are best reserved for yourself and a trusted circle of friends. but i guess its a good outlet.

its just suffocating when you realise no matter where you go or what you do you're always subjected to the judgements of others, even more so when people have place labels on you, like 'Catholic' or 'Student Council', when your actions suddenly become representative of the institution you are affiliated with, sad, but true, i guess. and somedays you just want to say, give me a break, i'm only seventeen and human, i make mistakes, i fall in love, i breathe, i eat, i poop, i'm just as lost as you are, and i'm trying my best.

and no, this is not related to any particular incident, i just think we all could afford to be a little more forgiving and understanding, that everyone has their scars and burdens to bear. (:

FIDELITY - REGINA SPEKTOR

i never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
i got lost in the sounds

i hear in my mind
all these voices
i hear in my mind
all these words
i hear in my mind
all this music

and it breaks my heart.
when it breaks my heart.

suppose i never,ever met you
suppose we never fell in love.
suppose i never, ever
let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
suppose i never ever saw you
suppose you never ever called
suppose i kept on singing love songs
just to break my own fall
just to break my fall.

and it breaks my heart.

this innocence,

farewell, friends.
i'm off to visit the Motherland.
hail, chairman mao.

fly me to the moon,

I'M FEELING YOU - MICHELLE BRANCH

sometimes i imagine the world without you
but most times i'm just so happy i ever found you
its a complicated web
that you weave inside my head
so much pleasure with such pain
we always, always stay the same

i'm feeling the way you cross my mind
and you save me in the nick of time
i'm riding the highs, i'm digging the lows
'cause at least i feel alive
i never faced so many emotional days
but my life is good,
i'm feeling you.

you go, then i can finally breathe in
'cause baby, i know
in the end you're never leaving
well, we're rarely ever sane
i drive you crazy and you do the same
but your fire fills my soul
and it warms me up like no one knows.

YOU AND I - CHAD KROEGER

since the moment i spotted you
its like walking around with wings on my shoes
my stomach's filled with butterflies
and its alright.
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling i'm never gonna come down
if i said i didn't like it, you know i'd lied.

so i'll say
why don't you and i get together
and take on the world
and be together forever
heads we will, and tails we'll try again
so i say why don't you and i hold each other
fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
'cause without you
they're never gonna let me in.

when's this fever gonna break?
i think i've handled more than any man can take
i'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
and its alright.

i forgot to say aloud, how beautiful you really are to me.

amanda loves lazy Sunday afternoons.
amanda loves the smell of her bolster.
amanda loves the warmth of sunshine on her skin.
amanda loves the sea breeze.
amanda loves aimless wanderings.
amanda loves travelling to new places.
amanda loves, you. :D



baby, you're the best part of my day.

hey little papa
ooh you're a stunner
hot little figure
yes, you're a winner
and i'm so glad to be yours
oh little cutie
when you talk to me
i swear the whole world stops
you're my sweetheart
and i'm so glad that you are mine
you're one of a kind.

oh, i'm into you
and no, one else would do
'cause with every kiss and every hug
you make me fall in love
and now i know i can't be the only one
i bet there are hearts all over the world tonight
with the love of their life
who feel what i feel
when i'm with you.

and i don't know why, i can't take my eyes off of you.

BACK FROM KRABIIIII.
KRABI WAS AWESOME. but i'm glad to be home! :D

GOING TO CHENGDU ON TUESSSSS.

okay post more when i get back. lazy.
i'm not an american idol person, mainly 'cos i'm in the IB so i don't have the time and also because i think the hype surrounding it is overrated. i just like this song :D

NO BOUNDARIES - KRIS ALLEN

seconds, hours, so many days
you know what you want,
but how long can you wait?
every moment lasts forever,
when you feel you've lost your way.

what if my chances are already gone?
i started believing i could be wrong.
but you give me one good reason,
to fight and never walk away.

so here i am, still holding on.

with every step, you climb another mountain.
every breath, its harder to believe
you make it through the pain, the weather, the hurricanes
to get to that one thing.

BYE FRIENDS. BACK FROM KRABI IN 6 DAYS' TIME.

ALL YOU WANTED - MICHELLE BRANCH

i wanted to be like you
i wanted everything
so i tried, to be like you
and i got swept away

i didn't know it was so cold
and you needed someone
to show you the way
so i took your hand
and we figured out
that when the tide comes
i'd take you away

if you want to
i can save you
i can take you away from here
so lonely inside
so busy out there
and all you wanted
was somebody who cared.

i'm sinking slowly
so hurry hold me
your hand is all i have to keep me hanging on
please can you tell me
so i can finally see
where you go when you're gone.

HOLIDAAAAAAYS.

today was such a slack day in school.
you can tell that everyone, including the teachers, can't wait for the holidays to begin!
its been crazyyyyyyyyy. but finally, some rest time. God knows i need it.

going awaaaaaaaaay soon. then back. then going away again.

have funnnnnn, friends :D

i'm a little sad i won't be seeing everyone for 5 weeks ):
date me out, friends :D

STRAWBERRY SWING - COLDPLAY

they were sitting, they were sitting
in the strawberry swing
every moment was so precious

they were sitting
they were talking
in the strawberry swing
everybody was for fighting
wouldn't wanna waste a thing

cold, cold water
bring me round
now my feet, won't touch the ground
its such a perfect day

i remember
we were walking up
to the strawberry swing
i can't wait 'til the morning
wouldn't wanna change a thing.

people living all the time,
inside a perfectly straight line
don't you wanna curve away?
its such a perfect day.

now the sky,
could be blue, i don't mind.
without you,
its a waste of time.

how deep is your love?

still having school manzxszxszxs.

the holidays are here! but i don't feel relaxed at all :/
results are coming back for this term. and after 8 weeks of intense rushing about and insanity, everything's finally starting to slow down,
and the smoke settles and you can see everything that you've accomplished.
and my conclusion is, not much.
i feel like there's still so much i can do/could have done/should do.

IBIBIB. O: still got a long way to goooooooo.
but time is passing so quickly, its weird to think that this time next year,
we'd be heading into the final lap of this IB course. scaryyyyyyy.

tonight's music/drama night really made me realise how awesome everyone in my school is. its like, no matter who you are, everyone has their own thing, like their own little niche which they are passionate about and work hard at. and some people have so many things they are good at, and they still manage to cope with studies and everything. i think its srsly awesome. everyone's so, all-rounded and talented. :D

but i guess i should always be grateful for all that i have.




love.