dying in the sunset;

this is my 300th post.
and i can't imagine how many things have happened in these 300 posts.


ho hum. i am going to be extremely busy this week.
but it's all part of the fun :D we'd all be bored to death without all this work to do.

i'm peering into solitude.
i'm wondering what comes next.
i'm wondering, how things will change.
i'm wondering and waiting.
i'm trying my hardest, really i am.


the idealist in me wants very much to believe in all things everlasting,
but the realist in me knows there's no such deal. or is there?

there's a little idealist in all of us.

she looked out the window and saw a million stars.

BY YOUR SIDE- TOKIO HOTEL

no one knows how you feel
no one there you'd like to see
the day was dark, and full of pain.
you write 'help' with your own blood
'cause hope is all you've got.
you open your eyes,
but nothing's changed.

i don't want to cause you trouble
don't wanna stay too long
i just came here to say to you:

turn around, i am here.
if you want,
it's me you'll see.
doesn't count, far or near
i can hold you when you reach for me.

your life is meaningless
your diary is full of trash
it's so hard to get along
with empty hands
you're looking for the rainbow
but it died not long ago.
it tried to shine for you
until the end.

i am by your side
just for a little while
we'll make it if we try.