life is a maze and love is a riddle;

i had an epiphany yesterday!
i suddenly realised how much my parents love me.
like, seriously.
the world's economy is falling to pieces.
and my parents still let me go to SJII (the most expensive school in singapore?)
i could have easily applied for a JC and saved them tonnes of money.
but they never forced my hand. they saw that i was so happy and let me have my way.
they are willing to do all it takes to make sure i have a great education overseas.

i feel kinda guilty. i really could have just gone to a JC.
i just had to fill in some stupid form.

i know i have to work really hard to make sure their efforts are not wasted.
but still, i don't even know if i have what it takes.

with every assignment, i am feeling added pressure.

sometimes, you think you have the smarts but no one would perceive themselves as stupid. so maybe you're not that smart after all.

sigh.

my separators are annoying me. ALOT.

bah. off to do homework!

hello :D
in the computer lab again.
i'm supposed to be doing my chinese report. but i'm done already.
i just got my tooth extracted this morning.
the left side of my mouth is numb.
it feels really weird. but i'm glad there's not much pain.

boredboredbored.
i saw on facebook - an average pineapple tart has 140 calories.
average calorie intake for females per day is 15 calories.
!@#$%$^&
that's like ohman D: my poor body.
abused by my reckless consumption of pineapple tarts.
well now i can't have any 'cos i got separators in my teeth.

phoo-ey. i'm hungry.

ohoh. and i feel SO bad.
we were having chem lesson.
and we're supposed to heat zinc and sulphur together.
and like, there was cotton wool in the testtube to stop the fumes from coming out.
and halfway while i was heating, the teacher came to adjust the fire.
and suddenly, THE COTTON WOOL SHOT OUT OF THE TEST TUBE.
IT FLEW ONTO THE CEILING AND THE CEILING CAUGHT ON FIRE D:

even though ms.bain was holding the tube,
i feel so bad! like, it's a new school compound and everything.
and now there's a hole in the ceiling. D:

baby, you're my disease.

aye, had a lot of fun today.
laughed and screamed my head off.
i love taiwan variety shows. so funny.

i almost died of a heart attack while playing UGLYUGLYUGLY.

tomorrow marks the beginning of a long and painful journey.
i'm getting my teeth extracted in preparation for my braces.
i fervently hope that it would be as painless as possible.

BROKEN STRINGS - JAMES MORRISON

let me hold you
for the last time
it's the last chance to feel again
but you broke me
now i can't feel anything

when i love you
it's so untrue
i can't even convince myself
when i'm speaking
it's the voice of somebody else

oh it tears me up
i tried to hold on but it hurts too much
i tried to forgive but it's not enough
to make it all okay

you can't play our broken strings
you can't feel anything
that your heart don't wanna feel
i can't tell you something that ain't real

oh, the truth hurts
and the lies worse
i can't like it anymore
and i love you a little less than before

oh, what are we doing
we are turning into dust
playing house in the ruins of us

it's like chasing the last train
when it's too late.

hahaha, kungfu hustle is still so funny even though i must have watched it a thousand times before already. just like the emperor's new groove.

party at jessica's tomorrowwww.
i'm excited :D





i like the whole chinese new year festive mood thing. i think it's cool to be chinese. 'cos it's different y'know? i mean, wouldn't it just suck if everyone had the same culture, ate the same things, did the same things, dressed the same way? isn't it awesome to have your own cultural background and have special clothes to wear and things to eat at a certain time of the year. i'm so getting a cheongsam for chinese new year next year (:




two artistes that i think are awesome :











she's so awesome. she's so versatile and everything.
and she wears the prettiest clothes. and she's very classy.
i'm a big big fan :D






*swoons*

DO I EVEN NEED TO EXPLAIN!?


seriously, still no song inspiration.

how could you be so heartless;

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

i'm having a lot of fun.

went to supposedly eat DIMSUM yesterday. but as with all things, they don't go as planned.
i ended up getting seduced by strawberries and making christee cry.
but i haven't laughed so much (at stupid random things) in ages.

i'm so bored.

okay i've run out of things to say.

my hair's poofy!

i don't understand why david archuleta's songs are always on the top of the charts.
he isn't even that good. :x


bleh there aren't many good songs out there anymore.

madness shared by two; Folie À Deux

SORRY GUYS.
SCHOOL REMAINS AS USUAL NEXT WEEK.
I CAN'T GO OUT DURING CNY.
in fact, i got a lot of things to do and hand up by then!
i don't think i will be going out this saturday either.
my parents want to visit an old folks home to do charity stuff.

i just had my first choir session.
i have newfound respect for people in choirs.
like, seriously. it isn't just like la la la, sing the notes of the song.

but it's okay. i feel like my life is very enriched. i have the freedom to do stuff that i'm really passionate about? and i don't find that having to go to school or having to stay back is a chore. i look forward to it.
i am starting to think that 2 years is not enough ):


TOP OF THE WORLD - BOYSLIKEGIRLS.

look up,
the stars are fading
and i am still here waiting to see you again
be with you, my friend

when the moon is gone forever
i hope you're up there somewhere
i'll see you again
be with you, my friend

'cause all the roads they lead to where you are
and all the streetlights
shine like they were stars
that's where you are

let's spend tonight
on top of the world
we can do anything
we can be anything
i'll meet you tonight
on top of the world
as real as it seems,
you're only in my dreams.

my heart is empty without you
sometimes you don't know
what to do
and i need you tonight
i'll fall asleep and it's alright
close my eyes
and i'll be by your side


sunny little boy.

you said move on; where do i go?

HEY WHY DOES EVERYONE THINK I CAN'T PLAY NETBALL!

i can,okay.
i just had my first session yesterday.
i'm a noob at the rules, and knowing what the different passes are. but when we had a trial game, i think i did okay. rawrh.
(i'm not really angry, just indignant. i don't know why i have to explain this but yeah, some people don't know what i mean when i say things.)

i'm loving katy perry's new song.

homework is starting to pile up.
i have to do a chinese report about chinatown in singapore.
and i have to do a research thingy thing for math.
oh and i have to write an essay for english. by this fri.
and i have to read my bio text book.
and i have math test on thurs.

but i love being busy. :D
honestly, sitting at home all day was killing me.

okay, better get started on work.

hello from school again :D

i'm in school again. maybe i should blog weekly on fridays. because i have 2 free periods back to back plus break and lunch. that gives me like 4 hours to do whatever i want. i am still not used to the freedom.

and for those of you who are going like, wah international school so slack. it isn't! hahah, i'm supposed to be doing homework now. but right now i don't have to 'cos i can do it at home. but when activities start, i won't have a lot of time.

it really isn't slack. even the really 'paikia' people here take their studies seriously. i feel like i'm really learning a lot not in terms of depth but in terms of ... life skills? i just feel like i've grown as a person ( well actually, it's developed 'cos growth is more for quantity - like how old or big someone is. whereas development refers to the quality of the product. hahah i learnt this in econs class. see i am learning something.) my brain feels more developed. i feel smart! i never felt smart in normal school i just felt stressed D:

i'm happy that other people are considering IB too but i just wna say different schools do IB differently.

it's kinda scary! the deadline's today. and i'm not handing in my form 'cos the option i want is no on the list and i'm just supposed to report to the school. but it's like. okay, if i flunk out or whatever, that's it. i'll have to go sell chicken rice (: that wouldn't be such a bad idea. i'd get like organic chicken and organic rice and make mine super healthy. then i can charge $5 bucks for it. hoho.

okay but my school's not perfect either. there are some really annoying people down here. D:

and jennifer garner named her daughter seraphina! nuuuuuuuuu. D: i'm not unique anymore ):

and that annoying song 'superhuman' by chris brown is rotating around my brain.

nowadays, my life revolves around - school, homework and the tv. i keep trying to get myself to sleep at 10. but i always get distracted by something my sister is watching like hannah montana or something and end up watching tv. and i'm going out on sunday afternoon to chinatown to do my chinese project so i can't watch reruns of ON AIR, and its the FINALE. means i gotta watch it on saturday night until like 2am. and i have to get up at 7 to go church.

oh, woe is me.

activities start next week!

netball on monday O:
i hope there isn't alot of running ):

i am going to be rly rly rly busy.

so there.

Don't dream of me
because I will not remain indefinitely
Don't dream of me
Though our paths may align eventually



Don't dream of me
'cos i'm extremely busy! :P

fireworks and candlelight.

BUILT TO LAST - MELEE

i've looked for love in stranger places
but never found someone like you
someone whose smile
makes me feel like i've been holding back
and now there's nothing i can do

'cos this is real,
this is good
it warms your inside just like it should
but most of all, it's built to last.

all of our friends, saw from the start
why didn't we believe it too?
yeah, look where you now are
you're in my heart now
and there's no escaping it for you

walking on hills that night
with those fireworks and candlelight
you and i were made to get love right.

'cause you are the sun in my universe
considered the best when i felt the worst
but most of all,
most of all,
it's built to last.

finally.

8.

hahah, i'm okay. i'm satisfied.
not thrilled 'cos i felt i could have done better. i felt like i should have gotten A1s for my sciences.
thrilled 'cos my english and history pulled through at the last moment.

a lot of people did really well (: i'm proud of you, cherylleong!

but oh well. God gives you what you need, not what you want.
and obviously He wants me to stay in SJII. and i'm really happy there.
so there. :D

glory to God in the highest,
and peace to His people on earth.

so why do i feel this good sober?

bloody hell.
i can't believe a number on a piece of paper can determine what is going to happen to me for the rest of my life.

I CAN'T WAIT.
I HATE WAITING.

damn.

i can't seem to find any good songs to listen to lately. bah.

i know you think that i shouldn't still love you;

i love my new school.
okay, sorry. i shall try not to keep ranting about it.
but seriously! i love that everyone is so enthusiastic about everything!

people aren't afraid to express themselves even if it means they are the only one who does it?
like people will spontaneously raise their hands and whatever when they are asked to? unlike what we normally do in nh. like if someone asks, who's been to __ before or something? people will actually answer.

i'm finally not the odd one out who wants to say something or whatever!

oh, there was a concert in school. by this lady called kat parsons. she's quite awesome, even though she isn't well-known. and we gave her a standing ovation. see,we're so awesome.

yeah well. monday's results timeeee. FINALLY. WHY IS IT SO SLOWWWWW. i wna know how i did now! D:

it makes you fat; but we don't care 'bout that.

hahah, hello :D
i'm in the school library now! the school has really awesome computers that are all new and nice and its free for students to use whenever, as long as they don't log in to facebook. :P

okay so like, IB has this thing called CAS where everyone is supposed to do something Creative, Action and Service. and we have to record the number of hours we spend on it, something like CIP but in a much broader sense?

so i signed up for choir and netball and peer mentoring. i can't wait - it sounds so fun.
also, we have bio field trip to Tioman which is actually like part of our curriculum.
also, we're going to the philipines to help build houses for the poor!
also, there's social night tonight, where we're all going to partay.
also, we have this uber cute mass dance.

so awesome luh. and my english has improved tremendously since i got here.
but i might be starting to develop a british/australian accent because i have to listen to that all the time. ( most of the teachers are angmoh, you see.)

and also, i'm really excited about all my classes and learning and school! say wow.

ah, i smell the vinegar permeating the air from your computer screens! :D


and well, results are coming out.
and i already bought all my school books, so if i don't get to stay i'd be really screwed.
but anyway, whatever happens, i am grateful that i got to spend these 5 days in SJII.

lost and insecure; you found me

i am so tired.

okay this may be the only post i am going to do for some time.

there's a really steep learning curve between normal life and IB man, seriously.
there's this overwhelming sense of being on your own like you wouldn't believe.
it's like,
you gotta find your own locker
find your own damn classroom
take your own damn notes 'cos if you miss what the teacher says you're a goner. they hardly ever use textbooks.
you gotta be pro-active and ask your own damn questions if you don't understand
you gotta work work work

you can really tell how there's a huge difference.
there is no spoon-feeding, no telling you what to do and what's the answer.
more like, throw you into the deep end and let you swim back then tell you how.

but it's fun luh.
it's very extreme, but like if i really make it there,
i can already tell it's going to be the 2 most exciting and engaging years of my life.

there are a lot of geniuses in my school btw.

bah, i'm worn out.


FIVE MINUTES TO MIDNIGHT - BOYSLIKEGIRLS

brown eyes and lungs are filled up with smoke
fast lives are stuck in the undertow
but you know the places i wanna go
'cause i've got a sickness
you've got the cure
you've got the spark i've been looking for
and i've got a plan
we walk out the door

turn it up
it's five minutes to midnight
you're coming home with me tonight
i can't get enough
shaking me up
turn it up, alright
it's five minutes to midnight
we'll see our name in city lights
make your heart drop and come alive

and when the clock strikes twelve
will you find another party to go kiss and tell
'cause you know i never will
i think we should strike a match
we'll hold it to the wind and see how long it lasts
we can make the time stand still.

when the best part of me was always you;

i am sitting here, waiting for time to pass.
2 more days until school starts and i don't know what is going to happen.
stupid results, when are you coming out.

on a lighter note,
I HEART LUOZHIXIANG.
i just think he's very cute, although some of his songs are quite retarded.
hahah i've been watching yulebaifenbai alot recently.
i hope i still like chinese songs after i go angmoh school.
maybe you people can spam me with songs.
but actually, i only like the really awesome kinds.
like JAYCHOU,CAOGE,PANWEIBO,WANGLEEHOM,LUOZHIXIANG.
(okay, it seems like only the cute guy types. except jay. jay isn't cute.)
oh, and i like SHE.

okay, let this post forever remind me of chinese stuff i love.

bah, you retard. i wanna smack your face.
go away.

love is a river that i wanna keep flowing;

hello.
HAPPYNEWYEAR.

ITS2009.

finally, a new beginning.
i really can't wait. screw whatever happens. i just want it to happen now. i'm tired of waiting. i wanna get my olvl results back, even if it means going ite,some jc i don't like, so be it. HURRY UP ALREADY!

02jan lunch with hweleng.
03jan rciy.
04jan church
05jan 1st day of school. :D

THINKING OF YOU - KATY PERRY

comparisons are easily done
once you've had a taste of perfection
like an apple hanging from a tree
i picked the ripest one
i still got the seed.

you said, move on
where do i go
i guess second best
is all i will know

'cause when i am with him
i'm thinking of you
what would you do
if you were the one
who was spending the night
oh i wish that i
was looking into your eyes

you're like an indian summer
in the middle of winter
like a hard candy
with a surprise centre
how do i get better
once i've had the best
you said,
there are tonnes of fish in the water
so the waters i will test.