I'M LEAVINGGGGG.

never thought this day would come.
can't wait.
and yet, i don't want it to come so soon 'cos then it would be over soon ):
and if you don't know where i'm going,
too bad!

ah well.
graduation!
i wrote a poem about it.
and maybe it's quite stupid but whatever :P

Finale

This is the song of young hearts

and the forever young at heart.

Cast your eyes to the heavens

let the aroma of memories

fill the air

the scent of friendship

warm and true

the scent of love

sweet and poignant

Our souls ablaze

we remember.

Swift and transitory,

the golden days

we spent together,

singing endless songs

under a campfire of stars.

Laughter reverberating.

Companionship of kindred souls

the sweetener in

this coffee we call life.

Let time stop,

for this moment.

As the last symphony plays

and we march out in

our last glory.

Tears glisten

smiles widen

hearts open.

Fare well, my friends.

Curtains fall

Take a bow.

It is finished.

BORN FOR THIS - PARAMORE

oh no, i just keep on falling

and where there's hope,

when misery comes crawling

with your faith,

you'll trigger a landslide

to kill off this common sense of mine.

it takes acquired minds,

to taste this wine.

you can't down it with your eyes

so we don't need the headlines

we just want the airwaves back.

eveybody sing

like its the last song you'll ever sing

tell me, do you feel the pressure now.

everybody live

like its the last day

you'll ever see

tell me, do you feel the pressure now.

right now,

you're the only reason

i'm not letting go.

and time out,

if everyone is worth pleasing

you'll trigger a landslide

to kill off this chronic state of mind.

alrighty so you think you're ready

say we were born for this.

apparently the scholarship isn't confirmed.
i have a friend who got 12 for olevels and lost the scholarship.
i can totally see myself getting 12 for olevels.
this is very scary.

i got new cameraaaaazxs.
T77, limegreen.
THANK YOU MOMMYYYYYYYYY.

i wna watch twilight D:

DECODE - PARAMORE

how can i decide what's right
when you're clouding up my mind
i can't win your losing fight
all the time

not gonna ever own what's mine
when you're always taking sides
but you won't take away my pride
no, not this time.

how did we get here?
when i used to know you so well.
but how did we get here?
well, i think i know.

the truth is hiding in your eyes
and it's hanging on your tongue
just boiling in my blood
but do you think i can't see
what kind of man that you are,
if you're a man at all
well, i'll figure this one out on my own
screaming 'i love you so'
on my own
my thoughts you can't decode

there's something i see in you
it might kill me
i want it to be true.

CULTURAL POTPOURRI

it was the most fun i ever had during cultural pot.
mostly 'cos of the people i was sitting with :D
met with the girls for dinner at jp pizza hut.
talked, laughed, screamed, loved.





:D



my disciples. :P


my girls ♥


the girls of NP, past and present.

oooh, scandalous.

me and ma'am.

heheh.

can't wait for grad night/ going to the U.S!

5 more daysssss.

yesterday:

my momma's birthday! went to IGGY'S to eat.
but french food is really not my thing, gimme a mee pok tar anyday.
but its super duper EXEXEX $300 per head, and there's no menu, they will just serve whatever they wna serve 'cos they're the best restaurant in ASIA x.x
but i liked the wagyu beef!

and guess what,
ours was FOC. :D
'cos they saw a pretty 16yearold there and thought, 'aye, pretty people need nice food and they shouldn't have to pay for it as is their birthright for being so awesome.'

on the 14th:

was supposed to go out with lenglengzxs.
but due to unforeseen circumstances,
ended up going out with her evil other half.
reluctantly catched THE GOOD, THE BAD AND THE WEIRD.
and it was surprisingly good.
especially because of the eyecandy and the super-cool shooting stuff.
bought a really cute bag for 40bucks.
officially broke!
i think i spent close to 100 bucks this hol alr :x
not counting prom stuff and new camera.

!!
GUILT.

today :

cultural pot :D
yayay can't wait.


aww, some people look so cute together!

and i am so behind timeeeeeeee.

hahaha, facebook says i have a scholar brain. :D
and the vocab ability of a rock star.

that's not very good.
but i'll keep playing.

(edit)
HAHAHA I JUMPED FROM #35 TO #15.
I AM AWESOME.

ohyes.

now that olevels are over,
i am freaking bored.

it's like the scene from Finding Nemo when all the little fish in the aquarium finally manage to escape from the tank and cross the road and plop into the ocean in their little plastic bags,
and then they are like, NOW WHAT.

yes, that is exactly how i feel!
no doubt i have many outings to go on which i don't really have money for!
and i feel guilty getting money from my mom cos dental stuff and SJII thing and holiday in the USA is costing her alot alot.
no doubt i have to make stuff for people on grad night!

ah yes, i am so bored i am going to continue ranting.

you know, i've always wanted to be those kinda very upbeat people who smile and laugh all the time, eh but i don't think i am.
i am abit more like a grumpy bear.
so much so that my parents call me bear at home, cos i don't communicate with them in words,
it's more like.

mother : QI AH. GO
me : rrrhuhhhhh.

okay, but i'm nice to them most of the time :D
why am i blogging about random facts about my life that no one cares about?
because its my blog!

oh well i think those kinda upbeat peppy things come from within!
and its either you have it or you don't.
i don't.
and i'm grumpy.
so too bad. :P


GOTTA BE SOMEBODY - NICKELBACK

this time, i wonder what it feels like
to find the one in this life
the one we all dream of,
but dreams just aren't big enough

so i'll be waiting for the real thing
i'll know it by the feeling
the moment when we're meeting,
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen

so i'll be holding my own breath
right up 'til the end
until that moment when
i find the one that i'll spend forever with

cause nobody wants to be the last one there
cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
somebody to love, with my life in their hands
there's gotta be somebody for me like that.

cause nobody wants to do it on their own
and everyone wants to know they're not alone
there's somebody who feels the same somewhere
there's gotta be somebody for me out there


P.S. we all know it isn't that simple, don't we?
in real life, there just may not be anyone there and you gotta rely on yourself.
in real life, things don't happen like the movies.

ITS OVERRRRRR~
yes, that jessie mccartney song was playing in my head 15minutes before the paper ended.

yes, manymany things to do.


if you thought i would wait for you
you thought wrong.

but you're just a boy,
you don't understand.

TMR IS THE LAST DAY LAST DAY.
seems so weird that after one whole year of OLVLSCOMINGOLVLSCOMING.
its finally going to be over.








well, i don't like
living under your spotlight
just because you think i might
find somebody worthy.

are you a guard in a prison
of maximum security?

ohmuhgoodness.
just found out yesterday :

SJI(I) STARTS SCH ON 5THJAN.

yes, even for me.
so don't ask me out in jan!
i'm not really sad 'cos i was getting excited about going to a new school anyway.
but it sucks that i will be missing chalets and things planned in jan ):

i love meet the robinsons. such a cute movie.

LITTLE WONDERS - ROB THOMAS (MEET THE ROBINSONS OST)

let it go
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists and turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these small hours, still remain.

let it slide
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we'll get by
it's the heart that really matters
in the end

all my regret
will wash away somehow
but i cannot forget
how i feel right now.

these little wonders still remain.



my grandma is the best grandma in the whole world.
no one, should ever treat her badly or make her angry.
HOW DARE YOU.

hsm3 was alright.
but i think lucas grabeel and corbin bleu are MUCH cooler than zac effron *insert eye-rolling here*
and there are too many mushy troy and grabriella scenes! *insert eye-rolling here (again)*

Imagine all the people,
living life in peace.
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one.

Imagine - John Lennon

going to watch hsm3 with my sis later.
heh.



i think this picture is cool. 8)

tag replies :

hwele : don't smack me, smack bryan.
hweleng : you are a jidongsao! always jidong over everything. and yes, i know you are still unconcious at 7.30! thats why you're my pig.
bryan : 8)
cheryl : hello woman.when are you dating me out.

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watched quantum of solace last night!
at first i wasnt really keen cos i heard it was part 2 of casino royale and i don't like not knowing what's going on while watching movie.
and secondly, i had this impression that james bond movies don't really have plot and its all about shooting bad guys and pretty girls.
well i was right. but it was better than i'd expected.
it's quite deep and stuff.
so yeah, recommended if you like that kinda thing.

me heart paramore foreverzxs.

DECODE - PARAMORE

how can i decide what's right
when you're clouding up my mind.
i can't win your losing fight
all the time.

nor can i ever own what's mine
when you're always taking sides
but, you won't take away my pride
no, not this time.

how did we get here?
when i used to know you so well
but how did we get here,
i think i know.

the truth is hiding in your eyes
and its hanging on your tongue
but you think that i can't see
what kind of man that you are
if you're a man at all
well, i'll figure this one out
on my own

i'm screaming
i love you so
on my own
my thoughts you can't decode

do you see what we've done
we've gone and made such fools of ourselves

there's something i see in you
it might kill me
i want it to be true.

(inspired by bryon.)

review of the Os.

English : eh i don't know. i think my 'Greed' didn't explore the topic enough. so i don't think i will do as well as i would have liked. hopefully A1! :P damn, but i don't think so.

Higher Chinese (?) : who knows. i was puzzled by the formal letter. like, why would putting stuff outside your house be a danger to others!? so i had to make up some crap. and again, stumped by the newspaper report (i am refusing to use hanyupinyin.) why don't they ask us something easy like teenagers nowadays always smoke or smth! instead it was smth weird about cabbies. again, some crap was made up and the national anthem was quoted.

E.Math : i don't know. see, i think i will do okay. but there's always the bell curve. so i may end up being a B 'cos of careless mistakes and whatnot.

A.Math : refer to above.

E.History : who knows, probably a B. hey, i finally (somehow) managed to do sbq in prelims 'cos i studied nazi for seq but then, they used nazi family policies. thus, i think i am screwed for sbq. and seq i don't know. i don't know whether i 'linked' back to the question. bah. D:

SS : i thought it was okay. i always have good luck with ss in that the stuff i study always comes out. damn, shouldn't have studied globalisation. waste my time.

Biology : i thought it was okay. luckily the essay questions weren't tough!

Chemistry : i thought it was the easiest paper? but i still made some stupid mistakes.

Physics : aye. my min. charging time is less than a second! but other than that, its okay to me.

so see, if all goes well, i might get same grade as prelim.
if all does not go well, due to excess of smartasses in Singapore and bell curve thingy thing.
i will most probably end up getting B for everything.

and IB thing is quite heavy too!
and since i am their 'scholar'
although i am not confirmed going in there unless i prove that i didn't screw up my Os ,
i am expected to be actively participating in school AND do well.
aye, its a long road ahead.

because cheryl likes to waste my time, so now i'm wasting yours.

Shoe size: 37?
Height: 154.5? Lol I don't know. Whatever, I'm short.

{ i am the same size as cheryl! }

Where do you live:
Far from you.
Favourite drink:
i don't drink. me camel.
Favourite breakfast:
soon kueh :D
Have you ever been on a plane:
Yes.
Do you smile often:
i don't think so.
Are your toenails painted:
black :D
Whose bed other than yours would you want to sleep in:
hoho,for me to know and you to never find out! 8)
What colour shirt are you wearing now:
White. (sec3adventure camp shirt)
What were you doing at 7pm:
(yesterday) getting my hair cut.
Are you a friendly person:
don't think so. maybe.
Do you have any pets:
no, but i want.i have 2 not-so-identical pigs (one short hair, one long hair)
Where is the person you have feelings for right now:
hahah, waiting to come get me in his mercedes. OR
waiting in some freezer in seven eleven (hahah, cheryl.)
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?:
i hold hands with people every week at church!
okay, they mean EVERYTHING to me :D
Do you sleep with the TV on:
no, but i would if it didn't contribute to global warming.
i like the tv noise.
What are you doing right now:
this stupid quiz.
Have you ever crawled through a window:
No.
Are you too forgiving:
There's no such thing as 'too' forgiving.
Everyone deserves to be forgiven.
Are you closer to your mother or father:
mommy mom!
Who was the last person you cried in front of:
oprah winfrey.
How many people can you say you've really loved:
Alot!
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex:
eh, don't have.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you:
yeah.
If you're having a bad day, who are you mostly likely to go to:
Oh, alot of people too.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time:
quiet! (i think.okay, not really.)
Are you confident:
I think so.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Buy all my friends a house.
2. Buy a farm somewhere in Europe where i can raise many pets.
3. End world poverty.
4. End world hunger.
5. End global warming.

see, i put money to good use.
more people should gimme money.

i. am. so. damn. bored.
there's nothing to do!
DDDD:
and i can't find my paramore cd.
i can't rmb whether i lent it to someone or whether its collecting dust somewhere.
okay, you didn't need to know that.

the ramblings of a nutter.

FENCES - PARAMORE.

i'm sitting in a room
made up of only big white walls
and in the hall
there are people looking through
the window in the door
they know exactly what we're here for

don't look up
just let them think
there's no place else you'd rather be.

you're always on display
for everyone to watch and learn from
don't you know by now,
you can't turn back
because this road is all you'll ever have.

and it's obvious that you're dying,dying
just living proof that the camera's lying
and open wide, 'cause this is your night
so smile,
'cause you'll go out in style.



i am still bored.

i think my blogskin is quite pretty what.
don't you think it goes well with the whole hotramen thing.
cos it looks like the page has been dipped in chilli?
nevermind, if you don't think so,
i ENJOY torturing your eyeballs.
muahahah.

went to the dentist!
ohmuhgoodness, there are so many things to do to maintain dental hygiene that i never knew.
the dentist said my teeth are in complicated shape.
and i have not enough teeth.
this is all very weird
and i sense alot of pain in the near future.

oh and obama is cool.
he's like my idol now.

SUMMER HAIR = FOREVER YOUNG - THE ACADEMY IS...

we're crashing cars we used to share
with summer girls
with summer hair
we're driving around
chasing the stars
but the party's busted up
before it ever starts

i'll never let you go
don't ever forget
tell me you'll remember
forever young
i'll never let you fall
it's not over yet
you and me forever
forever young

stop making plans
start making sense
don't you believe any word they said
sparked up
sparked up,like a book of matches
falling through the night
and rising from the ashes

don't come any closer
don't tell me its over
don't kiss me goodbye
here we are,
am i taking this too hard?
don't say that its easy
the hardest part is leaving
don't you wonder why...
suddenly,
we're out of time.

to be loved,
what more could you ask for.

i want to buy johnmayer cd!

the really old one! with all the nice songs.
he's awesome.

okay, amanda, control spending!

okay, i accidentally pressed 'savechanges' instead of 'preview'
and now everything's weird.

i'm working on it!
and getting very annoyed.
i am fighting the urge to just delete everything and move to xanga.
SERIOUSLY.


okay, now everything's red.
i would change the colour to purple, but i am just too darn lazy 8)
happy happy happy.
i see the light at the end of the tunnel!

HOLIDAY PLANS :

13nov end of Os! (THANK GOD.)
14nov HL. EAT. SING. SHOP.
15nov shoppingzxs. rciy. campfire.
16nov sunday. go church.
17nov mommy's birthday.
18nov cultural pot.
19nov HL. EAT.SHOP.WATCH.
20nov
21nov
22nov
23nov
24nov grad night :D
25nov U.S.A here i come!
20dec movie marathon

as you can see, i'm pretty busy for the next few weeks.
i still have to :
volunteer for SPCA (?)
work for my dad
go for biblestudy/rciy facil meetings.
buy camera/take manymany photos.

this song is the loves.

NO SUCH THING - JOHN MAYER.

welcome to the real world,
she said to me,
condescendingly.
take a seat
take your life
plot it out in black and white

well i never lived in the dreams of
the prom kings and the drama queens
i'd like to think that the best of me
is still hiding up my sleeve

they love to tell you
stay inside the lines
but something's better
on the other side

i wanna run through the halls of my high school
i wanna scream at the top of my lungs
i just found out
there's no such thing as a real world
just a lie you've got to rise above

so the good boys and girls
take the so-called 'right track'
faded white hats
grabbing credits
maybe transfers
they've read all the books but they can't find the answer
and all of our parents
they're getting older
i wonder if they've wished for anything better
while in their memories
tiny tragedies

i just can't wait til my 10year reunion
i'm gonna bust down the double doors
and when i stand on these tables before you
you'll know
what all this time was for.

I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP.

and if all goes well with olevels (ohmuhgoodness.)
i will be going to SJII next year.

i am very excited.