this is the story of my patron saint. :D

Saint Seraphina


born : san geminiano, tuscany, italy (no wonder i can't resist people with italian accents ;D)
died : 12th of march,1253

Born poor, and through she stayed that way,
she still found ways to help those in worse shape that herself.
A pretty girl, she lived as a hermit in her home, doing chores,
giving to the poor when she could, spinning, sewing, and praying through the nights.
Her father died when she was very young.
Soon after, she was stricken with a condition that made any movement painful; she had to be carried everywhere on a board.
She lived the rest of her life in constant suffering, and neglect, which she turned over to God in her constant prayers.
Never joined an order but lived her life under Benedictine rule.
Devoted to Saint Gregory the Great who suffered from a condition like hers.
She received a vision from Saint Gregory who foretold the date of her death.

am considering moving over to xanga soon. ;P

hahah, okay i know this is really dorky.
BUT, i get really motivated by HSM3's theme song!

this is the last chance to get it right
this is the last chance to make it our night

this is the last chance to make our mark,
history will know who we are.


i am so not looking forward to next week DDDDDD:

BREAKEVEN - THE SCRIPT.

i'm still alive, but i'm barely breathing
just prayed to a God i don't believe in
'cos i got time, while she got freedom
'cos when a heart breaks,
no it don't break even

her best days will be some of my worst
she finally met a man that's gonna put her first.
while i'm wide awake
she has no trouble sleeping
'cos when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.

what am i supposed to do
when the best part of me was always you
what am i supposed to say
when i'm all choked up, and you're okay.
i'm falling to pieces

they say, bad things happen for a reason.
but no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'cos she's moved on while i'm still grieving

oh you got his heart and my heart
and none of the pain
you took your suitcase
and i took the blame
now i'm trying to make sense of what little remains
'cos you left with no love
and no love to my name

" Mandyyy! you're gonna become a reality TV show star? Ohmygod, that is
like every pretty girl with no specific talent's dream!"
- Ugly Betty.

i'm a sucker for guys with the newyork-pseudo italian accent! ♥

screw this.
a little number on a piece of paper isn't a representation of my intelligence, nor who i am as a person.
i'm not the most hardworking.
but hey, my conscience is clear.
i've done the best i could given the circumstances.
i'm not afraid anymore.
if i don't do well,
its okay.
i know who i am.
and i have no regrets.


olevels on monday?
i say,
BRING. IT. ON.




YOU MAKE IT REAL - JAMES MORRISON

there's so much craziness surrounding me
there's so much going on it gets hard to breathe
all my faith has gone
you bring it back to me
you make it real for me
well, i'm not sure of my priorities
i've lost sight of where i'm meant to be
like holy water washing over me

you make it real for me
i'm running to you baby
you are the only one who save me
thats why i've been missing you lately
'cos you make it real for me

when my head is strong
and my heart is weak
i'm full of hurricanes and uncertainty
but i can find the words
you teach my heart to speak

everybody's talking in words
i don't understand
you've got to be the only one
who knows just who i am

and you shine in the distance
i hope i can make it through
'cos the only place
that i wanna be
is right back home with you

i guess there's so much more
i have to learn
but if you're here with me
i know which way to turn
you always gimme somewhere,
somewhere i can learn.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINZXS.



it's been fun.

being friends with you two is sort of like the thing in the cartoon, when someone's trying to make a decision, and then the angel and the demon pop up.




yeah, like that.
i fear i may soon develop a split personality.

i can alr hear SEET : what's the link!?
me : 不告诉你! :P


heheh.
but still, i love you both! :D
you two are what helped me survive this past 1.5 yrs.


langzxs :
hahah! 激动嫂
thanks for always being by my side.
thanks for always taking care of me!


leezxs :
its so fun annoying you :D
with WHATEVER MAN. and BUT STILL. and
不要呐~
thanks for entertaining me and
being so loyal and awesome.



rock on, babezxs.



oh no, tomorrow's friday already!?
quick!
somebody, anybody.
ask me what conditions are required for hydrogenation.
because
I AM SO UNPREPARED.
but my dad is veh wise.
he was like,
'you'll never be 100% ready for it.so why not just take it as it comes.'


yes but im VEH stressed.
'cos everyone has so high expectations of me!
like 'aiyah no need study lah, you.'
D:
i'm scared.
and i'm unproductive.

*insert doomsday music here.*

28 more days. 16 more papers to freedom!

GIVES YOU HELL - AAR

i wake up every evening
with a smile on my face
and it never feels out of place

and you're probably still working
at that 9 to 5 place
i wonder how bad that tastes

when you see my face
hope it gives you hell
when you walk my way
hope it gives you hell

now where's your picket fence, love
where's your shiny car
and did it ever get you far?

you've never seemed so tense, love
i've never seen you fall so hard
do you know where you are?

truth be told,
i miss you.
truth be hold,
i'm lying.

tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
where'd it all go wrong
and the list goes on and on

now you'll never see
what you've done to me
you can take back your memories
they're no good to me
and here's all your lies
you can look at me with
that sad face you wear so well.

ooh, bitter.

so sweet. i want this song at my wedding! *drama* :D
fairytales never happen and they don't always have happy endings,
but it doesn't stop me from dreaming that my edward cullen is out there somewhere!


LOVE STORY - TAYLOR SWIFT.

we were both young when i first saw you
i closed my eyes and the flashback starts
i'm standing there
on a balcony in summer air

see the lights
see the party
see the ball gowns
i see you make your way through the crowd
and say hello
little did i know

that you were romeo
you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said
stay away from juliet
and i was crying on the staircase
begging you, please don't go
and i said

romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
i'll be waiting,
all that's left to do is run
you'll be the prince
and i'll be the princess
its a love story
baby, just say yes.

romeo, save me
they try to tell me how i feel
this love is difficult, but its real
don't be afraid,
we'll make it out of this mess
its a love story
baby, just say yes.

i got tired of waiting
wondering if you would ever come around
my faith in you is fading
when i met you on the outskirts of town

romeo, save me
i've been feeling so alone
i keep waiting for you,
but you never come
is this in my head
i don't know what to think

he knelt to the ground
pulled out a ring and said

marry me, juliet
you'll never have to be alone
i love you
and that's all i really know
i talked to your dad
go pick out a white dress
its a love story
baby, just say yes.

wooh.
amanda's got talent.
got people quote my post on their blog nehzxs.
awesome. :D

i can already hear my Godfather/physics tutor/bald-guy-i-always-laugh-at nagging :
HEY! why are you wasting your time away on the internet!
shouldn't you be staring intently at your PHYSICS textbook until droplets of blood form on your forehead!? (because he honestly doesn't care if i fail anything else, as long as i get A1 for physics -.- )

but i must! if not i will be hearing the toothsome murmurs of the computer in the back of my head. yes, better to get it out of my system before i attempt to get down to do work.

i am seriously going to be broke after the Os.

first of all, sera wants to buy her own preety preety camera.
so she can take many many pictures of her own during grad night and in california!
thats like, all my hard-earned savings gone.

second of all, sera needs to buy manymany presents for many many people for christmas!
it's like, buy for one need to buy for all!
how bout, if i bought for you i shall secretly contact you and mail it to you!
if i don't, don't be sad, i still love you.
just that i got no more moolah ):



just kidding.
will buy for all my loves of course. :D

third of all, sera wants to pick up dance/guitar!
again, more moolah is needed.

fourth of all, sera wants a pretty new phone.
but since she's alr getting pretty new camera, she's probably going to have to settle for an average $0 with 2yr plan one.

last of all, sera is accepting donations to HOLIDAY SHOPPING FOR DESERVING,CUTE AND VOLUPTUOUS 16-YEAR-OLD BORN ON 29MAY1992 FUND.
(MOMMY, I KNOW YOU'RE THERE.)

hohoho. can't wait for christmas!
can't wait for this nightmare (well not really since i still find the time to watch all my favourite TV shows :P ) to end.

cute song.

PORK AND BEANS - WEEZER.

they say
i need some Rogaine to put in my hair
work it out at the gym
to fit my underwear
Oakley makes the shades
that transform the tool

you'd hate for the kids to think
that you've lost your cool

i'mma do the things that i wanna do
i ain't got a thing to prove to you
so i'll eat my candy
with them pork and beans
excuse my manners
if i make a scene

i ain't gonna wear the clothes that you like
i'm finally dandy with the me inside
one look in the mirror and
i'm tickled pink
i don't give a hoot
about what you think.

everyone likes to dance
to a happy song
with a catchy chorus and beat
so they can sing along
Timbaland knows the way
to reach the top of the charts
maybe if i work with him
i can perfect the art

alas, i guess this is farewell.

411, the class that seems so mundane, so dead all the time.
suddenly came to life!
i only regret that i never treasured the times we had enough.

but honestly, today was the best day i had in school.
not particularly because of anything.
but because, of all the friends and fellowship.
because of all the love.
all the warm and fuzzy feelings.
because of all the glorious memories.
major cam-whoring, pizza eating.

i know i will still see you guys after this,
but. it seems so weird that, we would never have lessons in the same musty old classroom (with cherxu's DNA spattered all over)
seems so weird that i wouldn't have to nag at lynette to turn off the lights
seems so weird that i wouldn't listen to dekguan saying '411.. go for ___'
seems so weird that its all no more.

I WILL MISS YOU ALL!
xoxo.

TIME OF YOUR LIFE - GREENDAY

another turning point,
a fork stuck in the road
time grabs you by the wrist
directs you where to go

so make the best of this test
and don't ask why
its not a question
but a lesson learned in time

its something unpredictable
in the end its right
i hope you had the time of your life

so take the photographs
and still frames in your mind
hang it on a shelf
in good health and good time
tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial

for what its worth,
it was worth all the while

we're all in the comp. lab now :P

oh man, i just saw photos of us when we were in sec1
SO. CUTE.
esp. craigven sim when his face was so chubby.
and caitlyn!
and jamieeeeee.
man, im gonna miss those times.
can't wait for 209 chalet :D

SEET.

our class is finally noisy and rowdy!
it's as if we've bottled up all the noise that we could have made during normal school hours and unleashed it on the last day.
it makes me happy to finally hear laughter and screaming.


{ hello , i am madeline. }

yes! i like her new hair.
i shall go for many hair-cuts after Os.
or maybe even before.
my cute (if slightly girly) hairstylist jason is expecting me in a week.

aaand, the guys are surfing neopets.
some things never change.

tomorrow's the last day of school.

!@#$%^&*()_+.
( argh. there just isnt any good swear words to use when you're Catholic.
not that i swear, its nice to know i don't have many options.)

shit. i don't even know what that means.
i cannot process it.
does it mean what i think it means.
do many people even grasp the magnitude of it.
or are they coming to sch tmr simply 'cos report books are being given back.

i find it weird 'tho.
i don't do much in school.
in fact, i think i am the most boring person on earth.
srsly.
all i do in school is work.
i don't even talk that much.
i wonder where these sentimental feelings are coming from. why should i even care?
i don't hate school. but i don't love it all that much either.
i'm always stuck in this limbo.

and nextnext monday is *drama* start of Os.
aaaand i don't know what to do with myself.
at least with prelims i was just like,whatever,
just study. anyway it isnt counted
but now im afraid if i start srsly mugging now,
i'd have forgotten everything by the time it starts.
i don't know how or when or what to start with.

aye.

GOODNIGHT, GOODNIGHT - MAROON5

you left me hanging from a thread
we once swung from together
i lick my wounds
but i can't ever see them getting better
something's gotta change
things cannot stay the same

her hair was pressed against her face
her eyes were red with anger
enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behaviour
something's gotta change
it must be rearranged, oh.

i'm sorry, i did not mean to hurt my little girl.
its beyond me, i cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
so goodnight, goodnight
hope that things work out all right

the room was silent
as we all tried so hard to remember
the way it feels to be alive
the day that he first met her
something's gotta change
things cannot stay the same

you make me think of someone wonderful
but i can't place her
i wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her

so much to love
so much to learn
but i won't be there to teach you
i know i can be close
but i try my best to reach you.

booyah.
TAGREPLIES.

SEET : what chubby! the word is voluptuous. my daddy says he wants to treat you to coffee.
cheryl : hey girl! stop pon-ning school, i haven't seen you in like,ever.
i wna work in b&j's too! tell bunman he's just jealous 'cos he don't have yummy bfs.
SEET v2.0 : yeah i hope so!

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i've gained weight!
seriously, 3kg.
this is proof that olvls is bad for health.

me *leans on mom*
mom : why are you so heavy. are you like, 50kg.
me *vehement denial* NO.I'VE MAINTAINED THE SAME WEIGHT FOR 2YRS OK.
mom : are you sure. i don't believe. go and weigh now.
me *goes to weighing scale* @.@ 48KG!? nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

bah.

oh yes, many people are disappearing!
but i am not.
yeh. i have only ever been absent from sch once.
i shall continue going to sch 'til it ends.
SEET2 i don't care you must come sch with me. :D
you know you like sitting with me, don't deny.

neways, gotta mugmugmug.
ain't got much time left D:

LIGHT ON - DAVID COOK

never really said too much
afraid it wouldn't be enough
just try to keep my spirits up
when there's no point in grieving
doesn't matter anyway
words could never make me stay
words will never take my place
when you know i'm leaving

try to leave a light on when i'm gone
something i rely on to get home
one i can feel at night
a naked light, a fire to keep me warm
try to leave a light on when i'm gone
even in the daylight, shine on
and when its late at night you can look inside
you won't feel so alone.

you know we've been down that road
what seems like a thousand times before
my back to the closing door and
my eyes to the seasons
that roll out underneath my heels
and you don't know how bad it feels
to leave the only one i believed in

sometimes it feels like we've run out of luck
when the signal keeps on breaking up
when the wires cross in my brain
you'll start my heart again.

LOVEBUG - J.B.

called you for the first time yesterday,
finally found the missing part of me,
felt so close but you were far away,
left me without anything to say.

now im speechless,
over the edge and just breathless
i never thought that i'd catch this,
lovebug again.
hopeless,
head over heels in the moment
i never thought that i'd get hit
by this lovebug again.

i can't get your smile out of my mind
thinking about your eyes all the time
beautiful, but you don't even try
modesty is just so hard to find.