YAY.

amanda is jubilant/ecstatic/overjoyed/elated/on cloud nine/intoxicated with joy.
in other words, amanda is HAPPY. like, extremely happy.

1. amanda has finally completed her IOP and math IA. (JOY.)
2. amanda is seventeen today! (ALREADY. ZOMG SO SOON.)
3. amanda has a lot of lovely friends who are so awesome she can't even find the words to describe them. (LOVE!)
4. amanda thanks (in no particular order of importance) : cherylleongsuefen,kohjunwee,limliangjie,hwele,hweleng,jessebelle,yingying,damien,QQ, linweijie,christopherteewenkiat,alyssachng,iancheah,shoba,lamyinto,christopherteo,ernestwang,weijin,jonas, matthew, lennonloy,jinguan,jovenng,mommy,luu,anh,rowland, and everyone else who wished me :D
5. amanda loves you. :D



best. birthday. ever. :D

the countdown to the end begins,

things i have to do before the end of this term :

1. finish CAS reflections
2. finish math IA
3. TOK essay
4. econs practice commentary
5. prepare props for musical theatre night
6. jam for platinum
7. study for bio test
8. study for chinese test

no shit.
:/

1-5 june arts week
6 june jane goodall symposium
7 - 12 june krabi :D
17 - 26 june chengdu.

kiss me, under the milky twilight

we'll watch a billion sunsets together.

6 MONTHS - HEYMONDAY

you're the direction i follow to get home
when i feel like i can't go on,
you tell me to go
and it's like i can't feel a thing without you around
and don't mind me if i get weak in the knees,
'cause you have that effect on me.

everything you say
everytime we kiss, i can't think straight
but i'm okay
and i can't think of anybody else
who i'd hate to miss as much as i hate missing you

months going strong now, and no goodbye
unconditional, unoriginal
always by my side
meant to be together
meant for no one but each other
you love me, i love you harder so

please give me a hand,
please give me a lesson,
on how to steal a heart
as fast as you stole mine

so please, give me a hand.
so please, take my hand.

are you ready?

remember those walls i built?
well baby, they're tumbling down
and they didn't even put up a fight.
they didn't even make a sound.
i found a way to let you in
but i never really had a doubt
standing in the light of your halo
i got my angel now

hit me like a ray of sun
burning through my darkest night
you're the only one that i want
think i'm addicted to your light
i swore i'd never fall again
but this don't even feel like falling
gravity can forget
trying to pull me to the ground again

and i've already found what i was looking for;

amanda isn't feeling well.

amanda has a sore throat and possibly a fever.
and she feels like sleeping until this term is over.
but then, that's not gna happen.

sigh.

moving on.

black holes and revelations;

i am in a thoughtful mode.
perhaps only because my mind is trying its best to run away from evil menace that is probabilities and a little thing we call 'math ia'. and so it wanders and wanders.

can i stay strong?
can i go on?

i don't know.
we can't change anything in the past and we don't know what will happen in the future, all i can do is exist in the now, and try my best. :D

after yesterday's founder's day, i was quite moved. i think its so cool that everyone worked so hard to make it a success, hopefully not because they had to, not because of CAS points, but because we're all united in the same cause and the same passion runs through our veins? i know it isn't true for everyone ( for we never really 'know' anything about anything else except ourselves, do we? :P ) , but at least i know it was true for me. my feet hurt like !@#$%^ and i was starving but i still really enjoyed myself.
5 months and counting, and i am proud to say i'm a Josephian through and through :D

and also, much love to choir friends :D we're awesome!

KISS ME - SIXPENCE NONE THE RICHER

kiss me, out of the bearded barley
nightly, beside the green green grass
swing,swing, swing the spinning step
you wear those shoes and i will wear that dress

oh kiss me, beneath the milky twilight
lead me out onto the moonlit floor
lift your open hand
strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
silver moon's sparkling,
so kiss me.

kiss me, down by the broken tree house
swing me, upon its hanging tire
bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
we'll take the trail marked out on your father's map

so kiss me.

don't waste your time.

i shall spare you the whining,
i've been whining the whole day (heh sorry lwj/christee/whoever else) O:

time to shut up. and get down to workworkwork.
WELCOME TO THE IB, BAYBEH.





i somehow find, you and i collide.

i'll be loving you forever,

wooh, birthday in 2 weeks.
last 2 weeks to be 16.
my, how time flies.
it seems like just yesterday when i just turned 16 for the first time.
it seems like just yesterday when i watched my first nc16 movie (you don't mess with the zohan -.-)
it seems like just yesterday, and yet, so many things have happened between now and then!

i went through o levels.
i got my results back.
i got into sjii.
i started a new life at a new school.
i made new friends.

phew. i sometimes wish things would slow down, so i can take it all in.
but before you know it, i'll be 50, sitting in my living room watching some cheesy taiwanese drama with my 27 cats. (:

PLEASE DON'T STOP THE RAIN - JAMES MORRISON

i don't know where i crossed the line,
was it something i said?
or didn't say, this time?

and i don't know if its me or you,
i can see the skies are changing,
no longer shades of blue
i don't know which way it's gonna go.

and if it's going to be a rainy day,
there's nothing we can do it make it change.
we can pray for sunny weather,
but that won't stop the rain.
you're feeling like there's no place to run,
i'll be your shelter until it's done
we can make this last forever,
so please don't stop the rain,
let it fall.

i thought that time was on our side,
i've put in too many years,
to let this pass us by.
you see, life is a crazy thing.
there'll be good times
and bad times
and everything else in between.
and i don't know which way it's gonna go.

i can't force these eyes to see the end;

NEVER BE LONELY - THE FEELING

people in love,
get fast and foolish.
people in love,
get everything wrong.
people in love,
get scared and stupid.
people in love,
get everything wrong.

but at least they're not lonely.

baby, i think i'm going crazy,
why should i be sane without you.

they tell me to fight it,
they can bloody well try it,
i'll never be the same without you.

people in love,
get special treatment.
people in love,
get everything wrong.
people in love,
their hearts get eaten.

but at least they're not lonely.

if i'm all bad news, you must be a liar.

phewwwww.

i'm sho furhreekeeng tyeird. actually i have nothing much to talk about nowadays, other than the work that i have?

manmanda wants to watch:
star trek
ramen girl

but she hash noh furhreekeeng tyeme.

manmanda has echoey classical music ringing in her ears.
manmanda hopes choir concert on friday would be a success!
manmanda would like to find a nice, clean patch of grass in which to lie down and fall asleep/stone/drink bubble tea/talk/laugh/cry under the stars.
manmanda would never get tired of climbing that grassy hill.
manmanda wonders.
manmanda loves.

it never ends;

but the ride is still worthwhile :D

i have manymanymany things to do.

you're the echoes of my everything,
you're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
you're the laziness of the afternoon,
you're the reason why i burst and why i bloom.
you're the leaky sink of sentiment,
you're the failed attempts i could never forget.
you're the metaphors i can't create to comprehend this curse i call love.

you're the IB.

and she said, oooh.

TO-DO:

finish IOP by this week
research for inter-tutor group debate by next weds
complete chemistry assessed task by next weds
resist temptation to ram head against nearest available wall/table/hl math textbook.

oh, oh,
i do not hook up, i go slow
so if you want me,
i don't come cheap
keep your hand in my hand,
your heart on my sleeve
oh, no,
i do not hook up,
i fall deep.
'cause the more that you try the harder i'll fight.

i can't cook, no
but i can clean
up the mess that she left
lay your head down and feel the beat
as i kiss your forehead.
this may not last but this is now
so love the one you're with
you wanna chase but you're chasing your tail
a quick fix won't ever get you well.

we'll go back to the place where the night never ends.

hohoho busy like shizzzzzz.

tmr : study for econs test/ choir prac/ buy uniform
wed: dental appointment
thurs: choir/ ptm.
fri: -
sat: rehearsal
mon: netball
tues: rehearsal
wed: -
thurs: choir/ shakespeare at the park
fri: founders' day/ concertttt.

and sometime in between now and end of this term, i have to complete a math IA and my IOP.

i need sleep.

OLD SCHOOL - HEDLEY

don't believe everything happiness says
nothing feels better than hiding these days
we bury our fears in the drinks, in the tears
for the days we believed we could fly.

so why don't you meet me?
down by the old school,
we'll waste away the weekend
with perfect regard for how cavalier we used to be,
that beautiful insanity,
the apathy's surrounding me
don't close your eyes,
or we'll fade away.

over and over and over again
we sat down for a minute,
grew into men
now we're putting out fires and changing car tires
man, how in hell did we get here?

wearing a killer smile to kill me;

if today was your last day,
if tomorrow was too late, could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last? leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you have?
and would you call old friends you never see?
reminisce old memories?
would you forgive your enemies?
and would you find that one you're dreaming of?
swear up and down to God above, that you'll finally fall in love.

if today was your last day,
would you make your mark, on ending a broken heart?
you know it's never too late,
to shoot for the stars, regardless of who you are.
so do whatever it takes, 'cause you can't rewind, a moment in this life
let nothing stand in your way
'cause the hands of time are never on your side.

live with no fear, die with no regrets.
live, laugh and love. life's too short to be wasted worrying.

you'll never know the way it tears me up inside;

much love.

you are young, and so am i.
and this is wrong, but who am i to judge?
you feel like heaven when we touch,
i guess for me this is enough.

we're one mistake from being together
but let's not ask why it's not right,
you won't be seventeen forever,
and we can get away with this tonight.

you are young, and i am scared.
you're wise beyond your years,
but i don't care.
i can feel your heart beat.
you know exactly where to take me.

will you remember me?
will you ask me to leave?
remember what i said?
oh how could i,
how could i forget.

we won't be seventeen forever.

hahah, in life, it seems, everything is so transient. one day it's here and the next day it's gone and over. but some memories, like golden sunsets over a glittering sea, remain in your memory forever. there's a great feeling of nostalgia. a sense of accomplishment at having had such wonderful friends, a sense of accomplishment at having lived life to the full, a sense of accomplishment in having no regrets in taking this path. at the same time, a sense of sadness, as you write a conclusion to another paragraph in the story of your life, and start anew.

finality fills the air. i wonder what the future would bring, i wonder how things would change or stay the same. and there's nothing we can do to stop it from happening, all we can do is hope for the best and keep on moving along.

all in all, assisi was great :D we made 278 dollars. awesomezxs.